Thursday, December 15, 2011

That Wasn't Much Fun

Hey Humble Readers,
I spent the better part of today in the ER. Apparently I caught whatever Ginny had, only 100 times worse. Non stop vomitting for almost 12 hours. Not able to keep anything down (not even water) and wacky blood sugars.
After several hours of IV fluids and anti nausea meds, I'm at home and feeling slightly more human.
Now I'm just tired and dopey. My Beloved is going to make me some soup and I'm going to bed.

Sent on the TELUS Mobility network with BlackBerry

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

17 Weeks: Crazy Has Come To Town

Hey Humble Readers...

So apparently I suck as a blogger... this is just lame.  I will attempt to get caught up soon, but for now I'm using most of my energy just to get through the days. 

On top of teething, our wee sweet girl is dealing with some sort of tummy bug.  No fever, but she's puked a few times (and why is there never a really great time for a child to puke?) and doesn't seem to be terribly interested in eating.  I asked Dr. B about it when we went for Ginny's 1 year check up, and he didn't seem too concerned.  Just to keep her as hydrated as possible, and let it run its course. 

My crafting projects still aren't one hundred percent complete (which is causing me some stress), but are almost there.  I'm just going to have to rush ship the package... hopefully on Friday. 

Another thing that has caused some serious stress around here this week has been my blood sugars... they were all over the place, and not really jiving with how I was feeling physically (my body telling me I was low while my meter was telling me I was high).  Turns out that I got a bad batch of test strips.  The only way I figured it out was by testing three times in 5 minutes and getting three VERY different readings.  So amazingly frustrating. 

Oh, and remember the bit of a fiasco that surrounded my NT scan?  They couldn't get the measurment that they needed because I had been unable to 'hold it' because of my kidney issues and IBS... so the doctor at that clinic recommended that I get a second trimester blood test done to determine my risk factors.  Well, I got the req from Dr. B, went for the bloodwork at the appropriate time (had to be done at a particular point... 16 weeks), and went for the results yesterday.  Apparently, the lab screwed up and they weren't able to do the testing.  At this point, I feel that we are just going to move forward assuming that all is well.  I'm rather sick of all the testing, and it won't change how we continue in this pregnancy.  It would have only served to prepare me for what might come. 

Told you things were nuts... on to the update...

How far along? 17w1d

Maternity clothes? Yes.  I broke down and pulled out all my maternity clothes.  I had forgotten how tired some of them are, so I'm planning on doing a little bit of shopping during the Boxing Week

Body Oddities? dry skin, periods of extreme fatigue (getting better), alternating constipation and IBS flares, acne, bruises from insulin injections, back ache (REALLY bad this week), cracking joints, super sore boobs, increased earwax (happened last time too), dry/itchy eyes

Sleep? Back to being iffy.  Spending a lot of nights on the couch.

Best moment this week?  Taking Ginny to see Santa.  She did soooo good.  She didn't freak out, or cry.  And Santa was awesome too.  He talked to her about her Stanley (her stuffed dog) and about staying away from the Christmas tree.  It was great!

Worst moment? Finding out that the lab botched my bloodwork.  I thought I was going to lose it right there in Dr. B's office.  I'm just so sick of needles, and to have one be completely for naught really pissed me off.

Movement? Yup!  Funny moment at my appointment with Dr. B... he still doesn't believe that I feel movement yet, but when he was checking for the Halfling's heartbeat, I was able to tell him exactly where the wee one was hiding out (down low and to the right).

Food cravings/aversions? Still focussed on protien.  And I REALLY REALLY want hashbrowns.

Rings? Still on, although I seem to regularly forget to put them back on after cooking or cleaning.

Gender? Not going to find out, but I'm leaning toward 'girl' this time around. (which, of course, means that it will be a boy) I've had quite a few people tell me recently that they think it's a boy.

Intense Dreams?  Nothing of note.  Still feeling a bit odd about not having dreamt about this Halfling for so long (not since just before I found out I was pregnant). 

Medical Concerns? Gestational Diabetes (insulin 5 times a day), High blood pressure (on 100mg of lobetalol 3x daily), continued heartburn (on 150mg of zan.tac 2x daily), kidney stones.  This week's angst... bad batch of testing strips screwed with my blood sugar levels

What I miss? Sushi (and I was doing so well!  Drat my Beloved for mentioning it!  I hadn't even thought about it.  Now it's all I want)

What I look forward to?  Going to K-town, my next ultrasound, meeting my new OB (oh yeah, I FINALLY GOT THE REFERRAL!!!)

Emotional State?  Doing okay most of the time.  Mood swings hit fast and unexpectedly.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

16 Weeks: Christmas Explosion

Hey Humble Readers...

I apologize for my prolonged absence this past week.  Between decorating for Christmas, doing Christmas cards, crafting for Christmas, and a teething wee girl... well, time got away from me.  I do hope that you are all doing well, and that your holiday preparations are coming along nicely. 

When last we talked, I was going to be going to a local dinner theater for my Beloved's office Christmas party... it was a blast!  The dinner was beautifully catered and my only problem with it was that there were so many great choices that I ended up not eating enough carbs and had a bit of a low during the second act.  The play was really funny (Maggie's Getting Married), and the main character was played by my nurse/dietician from the diabetic clinic, the one I talk to every week.  She did a great job. 

Ginny has done really well with the Christmas tree... she hasn't touched it at all, but she loves looking at the lights.  She is rather intrigued with a few of the decorations that are around where she can get at them, like one of my nativity sets (she likes to chew on baby Jesus) and our advent 'wreath'. 

My crafting projects are going okay-ish.  I'm a little frustrated with my lack of talent when it comes to some of the finer skills I need, but overall I think they will turn out fine.  I HAVE TO GET THEM DONE BY SATURDAY!!  I have to send off all our K-town gifts and I want to make sure that they get there in plenty of time. 

Anywho, on to the update...

How far along? 16w1d

Maternity clothes? I pulled out a pair of mat pants last week, and I'm loving the comfy-ness of them, but I feel silly wearing them this early.  They certainly are more comfortable than my regular jeans.  I'm trying to use my bella bands, but I think maybe they got too much of a workout last time as they don't seem to be working as well. 

Body Oddities? dry skin, periods of extreme fatigue (getting better), alternating constipation and IBS flares, acne, bruises from insulin injections, back ache, cracking joints, super sore boobs, increased earwax (happened last time too), dry/itchy eyes, NEW THIS WEEK - my hips have started locking up.  I have to make sure that I don't sit still for too long or I end up limping around.  Morning sickness seems to be gone again, hopefully for good!

Sleep? Better.  I still get up a lot during the night, and I usually end up out on the couch between 4 and 5am. 

Best moment this week? Ginny's first glimpse of the Christmas tree all lit up.  She was pretty excited!

Worst moment? I'm beginning to really despise having to have blood drawn.  They have such a hard time finding a good vein and I always end up bruised.  (had to go for a blood draw to screen for all the stuff that the NT scan should have showed)

Movement? Yup.  Nothing consistent, tho.  Just happens at random times.  I mostly feel it on the right side, just like I did with Ginny.

Food cravings/aversions? Now that my appetite is back, I'm back to being hungry all the time.  I'm surprised I haven't put on any weight with how I've been eating.  I think my craving for spicy stuff may be fading away.  But now all I can think of is meat.  Protien, protien, protien!

Rings? Still on

Gender? Not going to find out, but I'm leaning toward 'girl' this time around. (which, of course, means that it will be a boy)  I've had quite a few people tell me recently that they think it's a boy. 

Intense Dreams?  Oh my, yes.  Nightmares.  One involved a home invasion... I was, for some reason, living at my SIL's house, and the place ended up over run with 'bad guys'.  I was hiding in a closet and I could see them tearing through the house, and I just knew that if they found me I was dead.  Crazy!

Medical Concerns? Gestational Diabetes (insulin 5 times a day), High blood pressure (on 100mg of lobetalol 3x daily), continued heartburn (on 150mg of zan.tac 2x daily), kidney stones.  We increased one of my insulin doses this week and it took me a few days to adjust.  We are getting close to the numbers I was at at the end of my last pregnancy.  That scares me a little.

What I miss?  Being able to eat whatever I want, whenever I want it.  I get tired of having to watch the clock to balance insulin shots with hunger pangs.

What I look forward to?  Getting my Christmas prep done, so that I can enjoy the season.  Going to K-town for Christmas, taking Ginny to see Santa this weekend.

Emotional State?  Pretty mellow, just a little stressed about Christmas stuff.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Hobbit-ish Potpurri:

Good Evening Humble Readers...

If I wasn't sure before, it's now official... Winter has landed!  We woke up to several inches of the white stuff and while it looks pretty, all I can think of is slipping and falling (and probably breaking something... I know I'm irrational).  I saw the weather prediction for this winter and it makes me a little sad.  A La Nina winter (more snow than usual) and temps below average.  As if average wasn't cold enough.  *sigh*  I must remember the year I lived in Florida and actually missed winter. 

I finally had a bit of an epiphany... what I have been assuming is 'the crud' may be pregnancy sinusitus.  I had it last time toward the end (read: November) and it may explain all my sinus issues recently.  I'm going to invest in a neti pot or some saline spray and see if that helps.

In other pregnancy news, I think I have officially 'popped'.  Of course, with all my extra fluff, the average person wouldn't notice it, but I'm feeling a bit rounder than usual, and I've noticed that it's harder to curl up on the couch the way I usually do. 

I mentioned the plumbing work we had done recently on our bathroom in yesterday's post... but let me tell you, I am so stoked that I don't have to use a set of pliers to turn the water on and off anymore.  It sucks that we had to shell out more than $400 (and this after paying $250 just over a month ago for repairs to the same faucet) but at least they didn't have to go into the wall or anything to replace the faucet. 

I managed to do something today that I don't think I could do again if I tried.  I was making my breakfast, slicing some cheese to go with my eggs, when my fingers slid off the back of the knife I was using and I manged to cut the first to fingers of my left hand... WITH THE BACK OF THE KNIFE.  Really, the cuts are no worse than papercuts, but man oh man did they ever sting... especially this afternoon when I was slicing onions to go in our dinner.  Ouch!!!

Tomorrow night is my Beloved's work Christmas party.  We're going to a dinner theater.  I love live theater, but we haven't seen much since we got married, so I'm super excited. 

Well, I'm off to bed.  I went to bed early last night and actually slept for close to 6 hours in bed before my stuffy sinuses woke me up.  Woohoo.  We'll see if I can beat that tonight. 

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

15 Weeks: Morning Sickness? Still?

Good Evening Humble Readers...

I hope you're all feeling better than I am.  This stupid crud is just driving me nuts.  Constant congestion that doesn't seem to develop into anything else... just making me uncomfortable.  And morning sickness is still popping up at random moments (like when I was making supper tonight)... ugh. 

Christmas preparations are coming along nicely.  Christmas cards are ordered (with one of Ginny's cake-smash pics), my shopping for my Beloved is finished (except for stocking stuffers), and project number one is almost complete.  I will be working on project number two tomorrow.  Only stocking stuffers and one more gift for Ginny, which I'm getting this weekend.  We are going to decorate the house on Friday night, after Ginny goes to bed.  I'm not going to go all out this year, because we aren't actually going to be home for Christmas... so I'm only going to put out one or two of my nativity sets, and I'm going to do the tree.

How far along? 15w0d

Maternity clothes? Not mat clothes, but I had to bust out the bella bands this week. 

Body Oddities? dry skin, periods of extreme fatigue (getting better), alternating constipation and IBS flares,  acne, bruises from insulin injections, back ache, cracking joints, super sore boobs, increased earwax (happened last time too), dry/itchy eyes, no longer constantly hungry (actually not very hungry at all this week)

Sleep? Still not perfect, but I have at least been able to stay awake through most evenings, so I am able to sleep in bed with my Beloved... for a few hours. 

Best moment this week? Ginny's birthday party... exhausting but soooo much fun!

Worst moment? Battling the cold that doesn't seem to want to do anything but drive me crazy.

Movement? Absolutely.  There's no way that what I've been feeling recently can be misconstrued as gas or something.  My Beloved is anxious to be able to feel the Halfling from the outside.

Food cravings/aversions? Because I haven't been very hungry at all this week (thank you morning sickness) I haven't been craving much of anything.  It's actually been causing a bit of a blip with my blood sugars...

Rings? Still on, and a little loose.

Gender? Not going to find out, but I'm leaning toward 'girl' this time around. (which, of course, means that it will be a boy)

Intense Dreams? Nothing baby related.  I did have a funny dream about our bathroom repairs that we had done on Monday.  For some reason the plumber moved the shower curtain to the middle of the room and I was trying to figure out how to keep the water from getting all over the floor. 

Medical Concerns? Gestational Diabetes (insulin 5 times a day... levels have been a bit wonky this week), High blood pressure (on 100mg of lobetalol 3x daily), continued heartburn (on 150mg of zan.tac 2x daily), kidney stones.

What I miss?  Chocolate, being able to breathe through my sinuses.

What I look forward to?  Decorating for Christmas, my Beloved's Christmas party on Thursday evening.

Emotional State?  Good for the most part, just tired of feeling run down.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Beautiful Stranger: The Birth Story

Howdy Humble Readers...

This post has been a long time coming, and it's a ridiculously long story, so I apologize.  Because everything was so long and drawn out, it took me a long time to collect all my thoughts and memories.  And then, honestly, I was embarrassed that it took so bloody long to get this written, and I couldn't decide when to post it.  As Ginny's birthday approached, I decided that it was time.  If you make it all the way through this post, you deserve a gold star!

Thursday, November 25th, 2010

Beloved and I woke up at 6am, and just stayed in bed for twenty minutes or so, talking about what was coming and enjoying what we thought would be our last morning in bed without a baby in our lives.  We called the hospital at 6:30 to confirm that we were indeed on for that day, and oh, by the way, they wanted us there right away.  I woke up my Mom, who had arrived the evening before, and then we all dashed around trying to shower, eat, and get organized. 

We managed, miraculously, to get our poop in a group, and to the hospital by 7:20.  My Beloved dropped me off at the front doors, and then both he and Mom went to look for parking.  They ended up finding spots okay, but the pay parking meters were out of order.  The last thing we needed was for one of them to get towed or something.  They ended up having to go down to the bowels of the hospital to talk to someone in the security office while I headed up to the L&D unit by myself. 

When I got there, I was taken into a room that for all intents and purposes looked like a storage room with two beds in it.  No windows, and tons of 'extra' equipment, and just generally dismal.  The nurse told me that they couldn't have someone being induced 'taking up one of the good rooms for days and days'.  Fun stuff!

Dr. U arrived shortly after I got settled, and after a quick check (1cm dilated/30% effaced), he administered my FIRST dose of cervadil.  One of the perks of the day was that I was allowed to eat real food while we waited....

And waited...

And waited...

At the end of a day of unproductive cramping and boredom I was making hardly any progress.  Only 2cm and 70% effaced.  Dr. U administered another dose of cervadil, and we settle in for the night.  My Beloved and I played cards and then tried to get some sleep.  Mom went back to our place, and my Beloved sacked out on one of those super uncomfortable hospital recliners.  I didn't end up sleeping well at all, even though the nurse gave me a sleeping pill (which left a disgusting metallic taste in my mouth).

Friday, November 26, 2010
My mom came back in the morning, and after a third dose of cervadil it felt like maybe something was going on.  I started to contract every 5 minutes or so, and the contractions were lasting 30-45 seconds.  In the middle of the afternoon Dr. U stopped by for a check and I was STILL only 2cm and 70% effaced.  Ugh!  He stripped my membranes again.  Double ugh!!  And then he sent me home for the night. 

Talk about frustration!

We got home around 4pm and I took a nap.  By the time I woke up, the contractions had stopped completely.  We had a quiet evening, watched a movie, and Mom bought Chinese food.  I was totally worn out from the last two days and ended up falling asleep sitting up fairly early in the evening.  Amazingly I ended up getting the best night sleep I had in months. 

Saturday, November 27, 2010

We were back at the hospital at 8am, and this time I was given a 'good' room.  It had a window and everything... woohoo!  Dr. U checks me, and big surprise I was 2cm and 50% effaced.  The nurses hooked me up with my first (of many) iv... fluids and pitocin.  Dr. U broke my water and things got going pretty quickly.  By 8:30 the contractions are going like gangbusters, but I was still able very able to talk and joke around.  The nurses were increasing my pitocin every half hour and by 10:00 the contractions were becoming challenging, coming every 2 minutes.  It was around this time that I started experiencing some pretty intense pubic bone pain.  I was using my 'happy place' picture (taken from the top of Rockefeller Center, overlooking Central Park) for focus. 

I was allowed to have lunch, but that was my last real food for quite a while.  Right after lunch the nurses hooked me up to another IV... insulin, dextrose, and potassium.  I had tubing going into both hands, and it made much movement challenging.  The contractions felt really intense, but when the nurse checked me I was still only 2cm dilated. 

After much debate and some acrobatics with all my IVs, I was allowed to get up to try different positions for comfort.  I tried standing, swaying, bending over the bed, and sitting on the birthing ball, but I still had a lot of pubic bone pain.  By 1:30 I was ready for my epidural (I never claimed to be a hero).  They placed an internal monitor, and the anesthesiologist arrived shortly after 2pm.  He had some trouble getting me stuck properly (took 3 tries) but eventually I got some relief. 

Once the epi was doing it's thing, I tried to get some sleep, but the pain in my pubic bone came back very quickly.  I wasn't feeling the contractions themselves, but Ginny was pressing hard against my pubic bone with every contraction.   

Finally, when Dr, U checked me at 5:00pm I am making some progress.  I was 5cm and 100% effaced!!  Yay!  Sadly, the pain in my pubic bone was so strong that I was ready to quit.  I was still only at -3 station.  Dr. U asked me to try to tough it out for another couple of hours.  They top up my epi and I agree, but by 6pm I could no longer talk because of the pain in my pubic bone.   My Beloved grabbed some dinner (which I made him eat in the hallway because the smell made me nauseous) and then I demanded that he brush his teeth.  The nurses found that incredibly amusing. 

At 7:00pm Dr. U came back and checked me.  No surprise,  no progress was made.  As an aside, one of the nurses mentioned that I had some scar tissue or something on my cervix (wha?? no one has ever said anything about that before) that could be causing some of the problems, but it was mostly determined that Ginny was just in a bad position.  After a few minutes conversation, we decided that it would be a c-section.  Immediately, the nurses stopped the pitocin and my contractions stopped. 

From there, everything felt like it moved at hyper speed.  My Beloved donned his too small blue coverall outfit, and before I knew it, I was being rolled off the L&D ward and down to surgery.  Beloved had to wait outside the surgical suite while they got me situated, which ended up taking a ridiculously long time.  It turns out that the epidural wasn't in really solidly, and as they helped me shift from the bed to the surgical table the stupid thing came right out.  There was a great deal of rushing around at that point, because they needed to get me frozen again right quick.  It was a different anesthesiologist, and he managed to get me hooked up to a spinal in record time

Shortly after, my Beloved was able to come in, and they were draping the blue cloth everywhere and I was strapped down (what a freaky feeling!).  The sensations of the incision were so strange.  I could feel it, and I remember wincing, but there was no pain.  It felt like they were digging around inside me for quite awhile, and it turns out that Ginny's head was jammed up against my hip bone (to the point that her left ear was completely flat, no ridges at all for a couple of days after birth) and her shoulders were stuck sideways in my pelvic bone.  They had to use forceps to get her unstuck. 

At 8:42pm, Dr. U (who was being assisted by Dr. B), told my Beloved he could stand up if he wanted to see her being born.  As they pulled her out, my first question wasn't 'boy or girl?', but 'is there hair?'.  Again, that made all the nurses laugh, but after all the wretched heartburn I had, I wanted there to be some serious hair! 

I saw her briefly as they took her to the bassinet to check her out.  I could see her red squirminess and instantly I started to bawl.  And just as they brought her over to me, all wrapped up, the song playing in the room changed to Madonna's "Beautiful Stranger"... so amazingly fitting!  I got to give her a kiss and spend a few brief minutes staring at her before they whisked her and my Beloved away to the Special Care nursery (to check her blood sugar levels) and they closed me up. That process was just as weird as when they cut into me... tugging and pulling, but no pain. 

I had to go to recovery for about an hour or so afterward, and it was after 11pm before I finally got taken back up to L&D.  I was given a different room again, and foremost on my mind was to see my wee sweet girl... and get something to eat!  I was starving! 

I had just taken a bite of the piece of toast they had given me when they wheeled in the most precious thing I had ever seen.  She was red and squalling, her dark hair sticking up in every which direction.  I honestly don't remember holding her for the first time... but just knowing that she was finally here was so incredibly overpowering.  I bawled and bawled. 

The next few days were amazingly fun (watching my Beloved change his first stinky diaper) and brutally gut wrenching (breastfeeding did not start well, and the nurses were really no help.  They all told me different things and they all contradicted each other).  Kind of like the last 365.  And I imagine just like every day that will come on this journey. 

If you made it this far, you are a super star!  Thanks for reading!

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Ginevra @ 1 Year

Good Evening Humble Readers...

I know that I have made much of Ginny's impending birthday, but it is a huge moment in time for us, and I want to capture it as completely as possible. 

Outta my way, Daddy... I got places to go!
As of 8:42 tonight, our girl has been with us for a full year.  Sadly, she wasn't able to mark the moment with us because she crashed very early due to a lack of napping and a lot of teething pain (doctored with a bit of tylenol).

She loves squeezing into little spaces.
This month has been another busy month for our wee sweet girl.  Discovering that she could stand up on her own, without having to pull herself up on a piece of furniture, was a big thing.  She walks all over the place when she's at home or somewhere where she's comfortable.  She HATES her shoes, and isn't a big fan of the pseudo ski-mask (covers her whole head and neck, but the face is open).  Mittens are also an interesting experience. 

Did I do that?
Cutting her third tooth (her first on the top) led to some angst and a lot of snot.  But she's very proud of her new tooth and loves to show it off.  Its next door neighbour is going to be showing up soon. 

Look at my teeth!!
Ginny loves her food.  New favourites are grilled cheese sandwiches and peanut butter sandwiches (both cut up into managable pieces).  She also loves macaroni with meat sauce, and of course her mashed potatoes.  She's completely done with the bottle, and loves her sippy/straw cups.  She's been off formula for almost a full month now, and made the transition to milk easily.  She also really loves to drink out of my water bottle. 

She's been super snuggly this month... cuddling with Daddy
Her favourite animal has changed from 'puppeeee' to 'beh' (bear).  She still adores her favourite celebrity german shepherd (The Littlest Hobo), but more than anything she lurves bears, polar bears especially.  It's to the point where she calls all four legged animals bears, even the elephants in her nursery.  Her best moment of this past week was catching a glimpse of the National Dog Show on tv, and seeing the old english sheepdog... she was actually a little confused.  Is it a bear?  Is it a puppy?  It was quite amusing.

Whoa... things look funny from down here!
She's also becoming very aware of herself as a person.  She's obsessed with the little photoalbums we have around the house with pics of her.  She will point to a pic of herself, and then pound on her chest.  'Baby' is her clearest word, and when we ask her where the baby is, she immediately looks around for the pics of herself and then points to her chest. 

I don't need no stinking toys!  Boxes are where it's at!
I don't have her stats, but she has gained a little bit of weight, and judging by how her pants are fitting, she's getting taller too.  She's got huge feet... she's already outgrowing the size three shoes we got for her this fall.  Methinks she is going to be more entish than hobbitish. 
Two days old... We've come a long way baby!
Coming tomorrow... only a year late... the birth story.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Fun Was Had By All

Good Evening Humble Readers...

Whew... what a day!  We were running from the moment we woke up, until about 4:30 this afternoon.  And then the Ginny and I just crashed. 

Ginny woke up tot he surprise of the dining room being decorated with balloons ans treamers.  The look on her face was priceless. 

The party was a blast, and I managed to get through it all without getting weepy.  The food went over very well (I forgot to take a pic of the most popular item, the Buffalo Chicken Dip), and our wee sweet girl was spoiled with an entire new wardrobe and some wonderful toys.  She enjoyed her cupcake greatly, once she got into it.  At first, she just didn't know what to make of this thing on her tray.  But as soon as she got her hands into it, she was having a blast. 

Tomoorow, Ginny's actual birthday, will be a quiet day, for just the three of us.  Well, church in the morning, but other than that we're going to just celebrate in a mellow way.  I'm looking forward to it.

As an aside, can someone who is familiar with Picasa help me figure out how to embed a slide show/movie without having to go through youtube?  This was a bit of a trial. 

Friday, November 25, 2011

Not Ready

Good Evening Humble Readers...

The cake is baked. 

The ganache glaze is cooling. 

The wings are marinating. 

The house is clean (mostly... our bedroom needs to be dusted and vaccuumed). 

The balloons are hung, and so are the streamers. 

The present has been wrapped, and the card has been signed. 

All the other food is set to be assembled tomorrow morning.

And yet...

I'm not ready.  I'm not ready for our wee sweet girl to be a year old.  Someone please tell me this gets easier.  Lie to me if you have to.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

The Crud Is Back

Hey Humble Readers...

Remember how I said that I was going to get the flu shot and that was going to be the end of continuing cycle of colds that I have been experiencing this fall? 

That was the plan. 

The plan didn't work. 

I don't have time to be sick this week.  Ginny's b-day party is in less than two days, and I have to get the house cleaned up, and do a whole crapload of cooking (including baking a cake).  Ugh. 

Off to go make some tea. 

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

And Now For Something Completely Different

Hey Humble Readers...

This is going to sound like a commercial or something, but I'm pretty excited about a decision/purchase I made today.  Even though I won't actually get to see it for another year. 

There's a company here in Canada (I believe they are connected with a parent company in the UK) that puts together these incredible grocery packages for Christmas.  You choose whichever package suits your needs and your budget, place your order, and then pay a small amount* every week until mid October.  Your package is delivered to your home in late November/early December.

Each package includes your turkey or ham, an assortment of all kinds of snacks and sides, desserts, and beverages.  All name brand products.  A lot of things that wouldn't be in the budget if we had to pay for it all in December, on top of all the other holiday season expenses. 

I'm looking forward to getting our shipment next year, knowing that a huge chunk of our holiday grocery bill has already been taken care of.  All I'll really need to shop for is fresh produce and dairy products. 

*my American readers may be a little surprised at what I consider a "small amount".  Pretty much everything costs more in Canada, across the board, but grocery prices are on the ridiculous side.  Yes, if I shopped the sales, went to several different stores, and managed to find coupons for the items I wanted, I might be able to save more than what this program offers, but I'm thinking ahead to life with one car and two wee ones.  Saving time and aggravation is worth something to me. 

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

14 Weeks: Forward Momentum

Hey Humble Readers...

It is a fantabulously gloriously warm day here on the flatland!!  Two days ago our daytime high was around -20C, and today we are sitting at a balmy 8C (that's on the positive side!).  Snow is melting, and there is a beautiful chinook arch in the sky today. 

I was able to get started on my Christmas gift projects today, but sadly I ran out of one of my primary ingredients for my first project (sorry for the vaguaries... some of my readers may be receiving one or more of my homemade gifts this year and I don't want to ruin the surprise).  I'm heading out tonight to do some crafing with the girls, so I will hopefully have time to make a couple of pit stops.  I want to have these projects done by the first weekend in December so that I can ship what I need to.

How far along? 14w0d

Maternity clothes? Not yet

Body Oddities? dry skin, periods of extreme fatigue (getting better), alternating constipation and IBS flares, constant hunger, acne, bruises from insulin injections, back ache, cracking joints, super sore boobs, increased earwax (happened last time too), dry/itchy eyes, weight fluctuating a fair bit this week

Sleep? Better, but still not great.  The evening snoozes are really screwing up my sleep at night.  I have to break myself of them. 

Best moment this week? Not anything specific, just an increased feeling of motivation to get stuff done, and having some energy to actually accomplish it.

Worst moment? My doctor appointment yesterday was a disappointment.  Dr. B wasn't very interested in my questions or concerns, didn't check my blood pressure, and didn't even try to listen for the heartbeat.  I know that it might be too soon given that I carry so much extra fluff, but he didn't even suggest it.  AND, he's not referring me to an OB until after Christmas.  I know that's normal procedure (20 weeks, ''when the pregnancy becomes more viable''), but given my history and my complications, I would appreciate having a doc who specializes in obstetrics.  I really miss my Dr. U!!!!

Movement? Still in 'maybe' land.  Nothing that I could call definitive, but moments that make me wonder.  (like right now...)

Food cravings/aversions? Give me lime!!  I'm seriously going crazy for citrus... thank heaven that it's relatively low carb, and helps metabolize fats.  My weekly conversation with the nurse/dietician at the GD clinic brought to light that I'm not eating enough carbs, particularly at lunch... so I've been eating more and that's helped with the constant hunger a bit.  As for aversions, I'm wondering if I will ever be able to eat cottage cheese again. 

Rings? Still on, and a little loose again.

Gender? Not going to find out, but I'm leaning toward 'girl' this time around. (which, of course, means that it will be a boy)

Intense Dreams? None that I remember.  Odd.  I don't seem to be dreaming, or at least remembering my dreams, as much as I did last time around.  By this point, with Ginny, I had a strong mental image of what she looked like (even tho I thought she was a he) thanks to my dreams.  This time, nada. 

Medical Concerns? Gestational Diabetes (insulin 5 times a day... levels are pretty well controlled for the time being), High blood pressure (on 100mg of lobetalol 3x daily), continued heartburn (on 150mg of zan.tac 2x daily), kidney stones.

What I miss? Sleeping in bed with my Beloved and not on the couch, being able to read for any length of time (I either fall asleep, or lose focus... I've been reading the same book since September)

What I look forward to? Ginny's birthday, the beginning of Advent, going to K-town for Christmas, and having my next ultrasound as soon as we get home from K-town.

Emotional State? Overall, pretty good.  I get grouchy when I'm hungry or tired (just like Ginny), but I think I'm doing much better. 

(ps - I'm still looking for input on my health & beauty post from Sunday.  Please check it out!)

Monday, November 21, 2011

Mini Celebrations

Hey Humble Readers...

I wracked my brain trying to come up with some really cute ICLW intro, but I'm tapped out.  Instead I have a few celebrations to share with you all...
  • The Steadfast Warrior of Destined to be An Old Woman With No Regrets is back!!  And writing from Scotland!  Woohoo! 
  • Carrie of Tubeless in Seattle has also reappeared!  How can her triplets be two???
  • I have had three days in the last week where my morning blood sugars were at or nearly at target!  (is it sad that my happiness is tied to the numbers on my glucose meter?)
  • After much angst, I have finally found the jars I need for one of my Christmas crafts.  Not exactly what I wanted, but they will work!
  • I made my best version of my black bean salad ever tonight.  It was so good that I ate the leftovers when I woke up from my after-dinner snooze.  Thank heaven it's all good healthy stuff!
What are you celebrating tonight?

PS - please check out yesterday's post.  I'm looking for input and advice.  Thanks!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Confession Time: Health & Beauty Edition

Hey Humble Readers...

Another post squeaking in under the wire... Dang NaBloPoMo!  I am in need of some input from my bloggy sisters. 

Here's the thing, this hobbit has never really been one for a lot of make up.  Special occasions call for a bit of mascara, maybe a little blush (I'm pale), and some lipgloss.  Most days the extent of my beauty regimen is pulling my hair back in a clip, do something with my bangs, and slap on some chapstick (an addiction). 

I've never really figured out the lotions and potions stuff.  Up until the last year or so, I haven't needed much in the way of lotion.  I have always had relatively oily skin, so I have avoided most moisturizers because the ones I tried always felt too heavy. 

But now, or at least ever since Ginny was born, my skin has gotten drier and drier.  Not just my face, but all over.  The thing is, for the majority of my skin, I can stick with Av.een.o and that does the trick.  I've even found a lotion for my feet that seems to be working (thank you,  But when it comes to figuring out what I need for my face, I'm at a loss.  I go into the drug store or the HBA section of Wally World, and I am totally overwhelmed.  And the advertisments on tv and in magazines are no help.

I know I need to start using something, but I just don't know what (I have some 'fine lines' that appear to be getting more substantial).  My mom has always been an advocate of a department store brand of skin care stuff, but it's way out of my budget.  That's why I'm thinking maybe a higher end drug store brand might be the way to go. 

I'm 37 years old, and I don't know this kind of stuff.  What kind of a woman am I?   

My question for all of you... what products do you like?  Is there something that I should avoid?  (I know I need to avoid vitamin A/retinol because it would be harmful to the Halfling)  I need some serious help here!

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Hobbit-ish Potpurri: To Do, To Do

Hey Humble Readers...

I hope that you're all cozy and warm wherever you are tonight.  It's crazy-a$$ cold here tonight, and I am so thankful that we have a warm, safe home in which to hide away.  Praying tonight especially for those for whom shelter isn't a given. 

My to do list is growing exponentially every day... this always happens at this time of year.  Thankfully, I was able to cross a few things off my list today.  I have just about everything I need for my hand-crafted Christmas gifts... I should be able to have most of them done this next week!  Yay!

Another thing crossed off my list today was getting our flu shots.  Ginny did remarkably well, only crying for a couple of minutes after the shot.  I seem to be having a more pronounced reaction to the vaccine than I ever have before.  I'm experiencing achy joints (my hands feel arthritic) and the injection site hurts.  Never happened before... hmmmmm....

It took going to two different dollar stores, on opposite ends of the city to find the supplies I needed for Ginny's birthday party.  Who knew that it would be so challenging to find green balloons and streamers?

I'm a foodie, and as such I have certain expectations of my grocery stores.  Is it really so unusual for a customer to ask for chorizo sausage?  Really?  The girl behind the deli counter had no idea what I asking for.  She had to go and ask her superior, and that lady had never heard of it either.  And this was at a major grocery chain.  I wonder what they would do if I asked for quinoa?  (I ended up finding the chorizo at Wally World... go figure)

It appears that Ginny is actually cutting two teeth at the same time.  Fun stuff!  An amusing side effect of her having a new tooth... she spent a great deal of time today running her tongue over it.  Like she was trying to figure out what the heck was stuck in her mouth.  Also, we had decided to start gently breaking her of her thumb sucking habit (mostly when she's tired or unhappy), but we've had to let that go for the time being.  We'll give it a shot again after these two teeth come through.

Friday, November 18, 2011

Another For The "Can This Be Real?" File....

Evening Humble Readers...

Morning (evening) sickness seems to have made a reappearance, so I'm copping out a bit tonight.  Another 'ad' of questionable authenticity to make you ponder...

The sad thing is, my Christmas wish list is full of kitchen stuff.  I'm one of those freaks who loves kitchen gadgets. 

But my Beloved better not ever get me cleaning tools (vaccuum, etc) as a gift.  At least not if he plans on getting lucky ever again.  ;)

Thursday, November 17, 2011

A Big Wee Day

Hey Humble Readers...

Today was a pretty big day for our wee sweet girl...

First, she managed to stand up on her own... in the middle of the room, without having to hang onto anything.  She's been trying for so long, and has been able to get her hiney up in the air, but couldn't quite figure out how to actually stand.  In fact there was a period of time when I was sure that she would learn to do a somersault before she would stand up. 

And second... remember I mentioned that Ginny had a cold?  Well, she woke up this morning even more snotty and congested, so I rescheduled my doctors appointment thinking that I didn't really want to take her outside in the cold and snow.  Turns out that she doesn't have a cold at all... she has a new tooth!  I knew that kids could get a runny nose when they're teething, but wow... This is her first tooth on the top, third tooth overall (I was beginning to think that she was going to have to go through elementary school with only two teeth).  It must have just cut through this morning because it wasn't there yesterday. 

So what big wee things, or wee big things are happening in your world?

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Hobbit-ish Potpurri: Totally Random Stuff

Good Evening Humble Readers...

I hope that you have all had a good Wednesday... things here on the frozen flatland are sliding deeper into the deep freeze.  It's snowing pretty intensely right now, and it's supposed to keep on all day tomorrow.  I wouldn't mind so much, except that I have to go to a doctor's appointment.  I don't drive much at all during the winter, and given that we only have the one car, my Beloved may have to drive me and the wee girl.

Speaking of Tilly the Toyota... she had to have a bit of work done on her today.  In the middle of the summer, when we took a day trip down to the Big City Down South, we caught a rock on the edge of the windshield, and it spidered several inches before we made it home.  As the weather has gotten colder, the crack has gotten longer and it was almost all the way across the whole window.  Knowing that it would only get worse as we go further into winter, we bit the bullet and had the window replaced.  We got a pretty good deal on it, and I'm glad it's done, but it was a bit of a financial hit just before Christmas. 

Major victory this morning... my before breakfast blood sugars were exactly on target!  This is the first time in my entire experience with GD that my morning sugars have been that low.  I got close a couple of times toward the end of my pregnancy with Ginny, but never quite there.  I think we may have actually have hit the magic number for insulin (for now, anyway).  Woohoo!

Ginny has a bit of a cold going on right now.  Her nose is a faucet, and she has the occasional phlegmy cough.  It doesn't seem to be slowing her down at all, but it does mean that anything I'm wearing has become her kleenex of choice.  Ugh...

So I finally got started on my Christmas shopping for my Beloved this morning.  I have been hounding him since the summer to put together a wish list, and he finally has, so I was able to make some progress.  He's incredibly difficult to buy for, and the one idea that I did have is no longer available... anywhere.  Bummer.  At least now I have some direction.

Ginny's newest obsession is bears... as in polar bears, panda bears, grizzly bears.  If she sees a pic or a glimpse of one on tv, she goes nuts.  Bouncing up and down, practically hyperventilating.  It's hilarious!  And it doesn't even have to be a 'real' bear.  A stuffy, a cartoon-type drawing in a storybook... anything. 

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

13 Weeks: Moving Forward

Hey Humble Readers...

First up, I want to apologize for the tone of yesterday's post.  I was frustrated and angry at myself for what really felt like a waste of a day (my Beloved took half a day off work, the long drive, dealing with crazy city traffic, bad weather, etc). 

I was angry at myself because when we got to the hospital, before we found our way through the maze that is the Foothills Hospital, I had to go to the bathroom.  I thought I was being smart and didn't drink the required water untl an hour before my appointment, but I just couldn't hold it any longer. I was in agony (hello kidneys!).  Oh, and did I mention that I was having an IBS flare at the same time?  My body was fighting me at every turn.

So, because I went pee when I did, my bladder wasn't full enough, and they couldn't get the measurement.  The nurse made it pretty clear that I was an idiot for going to the bathroom before an u/s.  She tried every way possible, including internally to get the angle she needed, but it just didn't happen. 

The Halfling 2.0 looked great.  It was very reassuring to see him/her move around, and to get a great heartbeat.  And I know that this is just a diagnostic test... it doesn't change anything about how much I love this little one.  I just felt so stupid and angry when we left the hospital, and unfortunately that came out in what I posted yesterday. 

Anyway, onto the update...

How far along? 13w0d

Maternity clothes? Not yet

Body Oddities? dry skin, periods of extreme fatigue (getting better), alternating constipation and IBS flares, constant hunger, acne, bruises from insulin injections, back ache, cracking joints, back ache, super sore boobs, increased earwax (happened last time too), dry/itchy eyes, little bit of weight gain this week

Sleep?  Better.  The only real issue is that I tend to fall asleep between 7:30 and 8pm, and then at 11 I'm wide awake. 

Best moment this week? Drama not withstanding, seeing our wee Halfling 2.0 waving around.  It was such a relief (I know I shouldn't expect the worst, but I do) and he/she even made me laugh a couple of times as the nurse was trying to get him/her into a better position.

Worst moment? Yesterday morning, when the recently repaired hot water tap in our bathtub came off in my hand while trying to shut off the water.  That was a blast!

Movement? Maybe, but I'm not convinced that it's not just my stupid insides grumbling around.

Food cravings/aversions? Spicy, lemony, tangy, flavours.  I'm making lemony rice tonight and I'm practically drooling thinking about it right now.  Cottage cheese is still a no go, but other than that, I think I might be past the worst of the aversions. 

Rings? Still on, but they are feeling a bit tighter the couple of days

Gender? Not going to find out, but I'm leaning toward 'girl' this time around. (which, of course, means that it will be a boy)

Intense Dreams? Had a very strange dream where I was in some war torn desert country, running from building to building, trying to hide. 

Medical Concerns? Gestational Diabetes (insulin 5 times a day... levels almost settled for now), High blood pressure (on 100mg of lobetalol 3x daily), continued heartburn (on 150mg of zan.tac 2x daily), kidney stones.

What I miss? Nothing too much... today I would give my right arm for a Krispee Kreme donut.

What I look forward to? Ginny's birthday party, getting things done on my pre-Christmas to do list.

Emotional State? Mostly improved, but yesterday was no fun.

Monday, November 14, 2011

Good News, Bad News

Hey Humble Readers,
Well, we are on our way home after picking up Ginny from my MIL.
The scan went okay. Halfling 2.0 was moving around and had a heartrate of 168 bpm. He/she is also measuring ahead by a few days.
The bad news is that they weren't able to get a clear shot of the nuchal fold, so we traveled for 2 hours in wind and snow (it wasn't bad) for an ultrasound I could have had at home. The pics we got (and had to pay for) aren't even very good.
I'm very happy that the baby looks good. I just wish that this trip would have been more productive.
Sent on the TELUS Mobility network with BlackBerry

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Party Plans!

Howdy Humble Readers!

I hope that you've had a great, restful weekend.  Ours has been busy (Ginny's photoshoot, grocery shopping, a trip to see MIL in the Wee Little Town Down South, church, and Costco... yikes, busy and expensive). 

Part of what I accomplished this weekend was planning Ginny's birthday party.  It's not going to be a big ridiculous blowout or anything.  Just a small gathering of some family and friends, maybe 10 people plus us. 

I did up the invite (and a super huge thank you to everyone who offered advice and assistance!!  I really appreciate all your help).  It's pretty simple, but I think it's cute.

And I decided on the menu... These yummy ham & swiss sammies,

Going to do them on those little butter pan rolls... YUM!
 cilantro lime chicken wings,

It's a cilantro lime pesto - Yum Oh La!
veggies & dip, and baked goat cheese with herbs. 

Ginny's going to have a cupcake from a local cupcake bakery, and I'm going to bake this chocolate wonder for the grown ups.

This is how I'm planning on decorating our dining room, but I'm going to use pistachio green balloons mixed with a few pink. 

As you can tell, Pinterest has been hugely helpful in planning.  I'm still trying to think of a way that our family and friends from far away can participate in the day... I'm thinking of something like everyone sending her a wish for the next year or maybe a favourite storybook quote.  Any thoughts?

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Technical Difficulties

Hey Humble Readers...

I had a great post planned for today, but my comment section is going really wonky and attempting to fix it has taken away any of my creativity.  Not to mention patience. 

I hope all is well in your neck of the woods. 

I'll write something worth reading tomorrow.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Help A Sister Out?

Hey Humble Readers...

I need some assistance... and I'm hoping that one of you might be able to help me out. 

We had Ginny's birthday portraits taken today, and they gave us one of the unedited images on CD.  Super cute, eh?

I want to turn it into the invitation that we're going to email out to family and friends for her birthday party, but I don't have the know-how or the software to doctor it up. 

Is there a website that you know of that's user friendly (not to mention free) for cropping and adding text?  I would really appreciate any input...

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Hobbit-ish Potpurri: Weather Worries

Hey Humble Readers...

It's been really unseasonably warm the last couple of days, and I am loving it!  Normally around this time of year, we're sitting just around the freezing mark for a daytime high, and we have been getting up to 12 degrees!  (that's somewhere in the mid 50s for my friends who use Fahrenheit).  Gorgeous!  The kicker is, by Monday we're supposed to be getting our first real winter storm, with 10cm of snow.  And Monday is the day that we need to drive two hours south.  Ugh!

Somehow in the midst of everything going on this autumn I managed to forget to contact the photographer that we had made preliminary arrangements with for Ginny's first birthday portraits.  Bad news is that she's all booked up.  Soooo, instead of cute cake smash pics taken in our home, we're going to be doing the standard Sears portraits.  Oh well.  I went and did a little shopping this evening and found the outfit she's going to wear tomorrow for the pics.  I think it's super cute, and I can't wait to see and share the results.

It generally takes a lot to gross me out, especially when it comes to forensic content on tv shows.  I love Bones, CSI, Law & Order, and pretty much any other cop procedural drama out there.  But the one thing that just makes me nauseous is anything to do with competitive eating.  And the cop shows seem to run with this storyline at least once a year.  Can someone please tell me what is entertaining about watching someone jam an obscene amount of hot dogs, chicken wings, or pie?  And what qualifies this as a sport?  *shudder*  I just think it's absolutely disgusting on sooooo many levels. 

Kidney stone(s) appear to be moving about today.  Not a lot of sharp pain, but just aggravating enough to make things rather uncomfortable.  I wish these things would just pass already.  I know it's a painful process (my dad has dealt with them on several occasions), but I would rather just have it over. 

Good news on the GD front... sort of.  I've been experiencing some moderate lows.  The lows suck, but it means that we are really close to having my insulin levels figured out, and once they are stabilized, it will only be a matter of tweaking them as this pregnancy goes on.  Yay!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

This Scares The Hell Out Of Me

Humble Readers,

I came across this story online a couple of days ago, and it just blows my mind. 

The gist of it is that presumably a group of kids, incensed that one of their neighbours didn't hand out Halloween candy, wrote him a letter of complaint.  Here's what the letter said (spelling/grammar is copied verbatim from the letter):

Dear Mister:

Just in case you didn't know, last night was Hallo'ween.  The lady who lived there before made us candy apples.  Last night there were no candy apples.  Come to think of it there was no candy at all from your home!
We think that is just wrong and would like you to rectify this for next year. 
Chocolate bars would be ok since you are a mister and probably don't know how to make Miss Toby's candy apples. 
Chips we get too much of.

Children of the Hood...

Ps:  Don't give us apples we're not allowed to eat anything that isn't packaged.
If you feel bad, you can deliver the candy to us all on the weekend.  Maybe Sat, we are all pretty much out of candy by then, and it's cheap to buy now.

I am absolutely appalled that any kid would write and deliver such a letter.  It seems clear to me that the parents were involved, at least a bit, as the language of the letter doesn't strike me as that of an elementary school or middle school student.  It sounds like an adult trying to sound like a kid. 

The attitude of entitlement and greed exhibited by these kids (and their parents) is shocking, and honestly it scares me for the type of world in which Ginny and Halfling 2.0 are going to grow up.  I hope and pray that my Beloved and I will be able to instill an attitude of thankfulness and understanding in our children. 

(I think this qualifies for Kristin's WTF Wednesday, don't you?)

I have another post percolating about the culture of false fairness that seems to have developed over the last few years.  It seems to tie in with this one, but I need to think it through a little bit more before I put it out there.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

12 Week Update: I Have A Theory

Good Afternoon Humble Readers...

Have I told you I have a theory?  It's a theory about why this pregnancy seems to be so much harder than last time...

When I was pregnant with Ginny, I had challenges, but not so many this early on.  Even things like acne were non-existent while I was pregnant with my wee sweet girl (I never had such great skin!!).  And I didn't have a cold or the flu or anything except a little bladder infection right at the end. 

Anyway, my theory... when we conceived this time around, I was sick.  I had a killer summer cold that I caught from Ginny.  I think, because my immune system was suppressed right from day one, that's why I've had such a crappy run these past several weeks. 

But I'm determined that's going to change.  We're going to go get our flu shots next week, and I am adamant that I'm not going to get sick any more during this pregnancy.  I think I have enough on my plate without dealing with more illnesses.  Wouldn't you agree?  Anywho... on to the update...

How far along? 12w0d

Maternity clothes? Nope, but my jeans were a little challenging to do up this morning.

Body Oddities? dry skin, periods of extreme fatigue (altho it is getting a bit better), alternating constipation and IBS flares, constant hunger, acne, bruises from insulin injections, back ache, cracking joints

Sleep? Well, it was improving until the whole kidney infection/stone thing started.  At least I can sleep for about 4 hours at a stretch now.

Best moment this week? Ginny's haircut on Saturday... it was fun and it took my mind off things for a while.

Worst moment? Sunday's meltdown.  I'm glad it happened though, because I was beginning to feel like I was wound too tight. 

Movement? Maybe... I had some up & down sensations on my lower right side last week.  Not sure if I just imagined it or not though

Food cravings/aversions? Spicy, lemony, tangy things.  Sweet & sour sauce with some hot sauce added... yum!  I really want a good pastry too, but of course that's just because I can't.  Cottage cheese is still on the no fly list, along with strong smelling fish like canned tuna or salmon. 

Rings? Still on, and still loose.

Gender? Not going to find out, but I'm leaning toward 'girl' this time around. (which, of course, means that it will be a boy)

Intense Dreams?  None that I remember this week

Medical Concerns? On 200mg of prometrium 2x a day until 12wks (tomorrow is my last dose... yay!), Gestational Diabetes (insulin 5 times a day... levels almost settled for now), High blood pressure (on 100mg of lobetalol 3x daily), continued heartburn (on 150mg of zan.tac 2x daily), kidney infection/stones (on antibiotics), stye on my left eye.

What I miss? Going a week without something else adding to my stress level, sweets, sushi

What I look forward to? Planning Ginny's birthday party, my NT scan on Monday, getting to go out for dinner with my Beloved in the Big City Down South after the scan

Emotional State?  Improving, but still up and down.  I find that I have a very short fuse with my Beloved when I'm dealing with the pain, which really isn't fair to him. 

Monday, November 7, 2011

Small Things Make Me Happy!

Hey Humble Readers...

How are things in your world?  Things here are a bit better than yesterday, I'm happy to report.  Several small things have combined to make today a pretty good day.
  • The stye appears to have gotten significantly better (my eyelid is still swollen and a bit sore, but the lump is gone.  The washcloth trick totally works!) and I was relatively kidney-pain free for most of the day.  Yay!
  • Another thing that made today a good day was that I made a big pot of soup... White Bean & Italian Sausage soup.  Sooooo yummy!
  • I'm now less than a week away from my NT scan (going for my blood work tomorrow so that they can have the results on the day of the scan).  I confess that I'm nervous about it, but I'm trying hard not to focus on it.  Just knowing that we will get to see this little Halfling 2.0 again certainly helps.
  • Ginny slept for almost two hours this morning, and I was able to take the most glorious nap.
  • Ginny walked across the living room today on her own... about 8 or 9 steps!
  • We were able to get the car in to get the winter tires put on.  Yay!  No more stress about that.
So, tell me, what little things happened in your world today to make you happy?

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Is This Never Going To End?

Humble Readers,

I'm tired of being a whiny suck, but things just seem to be going from bad to worse. 

Yesterday I woke up with a sore eyelid.  I thought maybe I had just scratched it in my sleep or something, but it's been getting worse and now there's a little white bump on the lip of my eyelid.  It hurts like stink, and blinking is a new experience.  Maybe it's a sty?

Oh yeah, and we had to throw out a turkey that I had purchased last month when they were on sale because my Beloved accidentally left it on the storage room floor when he was digging in the freezer for a package of tilapia the other day.  Somehow neither of us noticed it (it was in the plastic grocery bag that it came home in), and it was more than half thawed. 

Anyway, the turkey was kind of the last straw.  I just lost it.  Entirely.  And of course bawling like an idiot did nothing to make my eye feel any better.  *sigh*

Tell me I'll look back and laugh at this someday...

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Hobbit-ish Potpurri: It's Baaaaaack!

Hey Humble Readers,

I hope things are going well where ever you are.  Things on the frozen flatland are, well, frozen.  Winter has officially started here in our little city.  It snowed through the night on Thursday, and Friday morning we woke up to a thin blanket of white and arctic temps.  I finally caved and turned on the furnace (it hasn't been that cold at all until the last couple of days).  I've begun obsessing about the weather, stressing about the fact that we don't have the winter tires on the car yet (hopefully we can get in on Monday), and my fear of falling on the ice has reared it's ugly head once again.  Ugh... and to think I used to love winter when I was a kid. 

We took Ginny for a haircut today, her second.  It actually was only a bang trim, as I have decided to let her hair grow out and hopefully bring control to the two cowlicks she has on the back of her head.  She was very cute at the hair dressers.  We take her to a place that specializes in kids' cuts, and they have all these special chairs.  Ginny was able to sit in a pink car shaped seat, and she totally knew how to play with the steering wheel and the gear shift.  It was quite amusing.  The hairdresser was also kind enough to trim my bangs, which had gotten sadly out of control. 

My kidney infection seems to be improving in fits and starts.  I will be feeling relatively fine, and things will be 'normal' in the bathroom (sorry tmi) for about half the day, and then things will get bad again.  Of course this is making me think more and more that it's a kidney stone, and not much of an infection.  This is seemingly confirmed by the periodic cramping-kicked-in-the-back-knock-me-over pain. 

My Beloved, the sweet man that he is, brought me flowers the other day when I was feeling really crummy.  How do I deserve such a man?

I wonder how Ginny is going to handle the time change this evening.  She's been sleeping really well for the last few days, and I'm hoping to be able to take advantage of the extra hour of sleep tonight.  DON'T FORGET TO TURN YOUR CLOCKS BACK!  :)

Please send prayers and good thoughts to our bloggy sister Good Timing over at Love Grows Love.  She's 16 weeks pregnant, and had a very scary day on Thursday with a leak of amniotic fluid.  The last we heard, she was put on bedrest while waiting for an u/s on Friday. 

Friday, November 4, 2011

Foodie Fridays: Lazy Sausage Casserole

Hey Humble Readers...

I'm just barely going to squeak this post in on time today.  Yikes!  I've missed the last couple of Foodie Friday posts because I've been so tired, but I'm back and this recipe is a great one!

This is another recipe that I found through Pinterest.  I love the flavour combo, the flexibility of the ingredients to use whatever is available, and the low maintenence way this tastiness all comes together.   I made a few minor changes to the original recipe that comes from KayoticKitchen (great step by step pics!).

And by the way, when I say tastiness, I mean TAST-I-NESS!  It's one of those rare recipes where, as I was eating it the first time I told my Beloved that I was going to make it again the next week.  And I did.  I don't like cliches when it comes to food, but it's totally a party in your mouth.

Lazy Sausage Casserole

4 sausages (beef or pork.. I used hot italian sausage)
5 med potatoes
1/2 pound carrots (I used half a bag of pre-cut and peeled carrots)
1 bell pepper
1 large onion
1 fennel bulb (a few of the fronds reserved for garnish)
1 pint grape tomatoes
1 pint button mushrooms
2 garlic cloves, minced
2 tbsp olive oil
freshly cracked black pepper
Italian herbs (I used about a tsp each of oregano, thyme, basil, rosemary, and a pinch of crushed red pepper flakes)
1/2 cup chicken broth
4 tbsp balsamic vinegar

Preheat oven to 450F.  Peel and quarter the potatoes.  Peel onions and cut into wedges leaving the root end intact.  Cut the fennel bulb into wedges.  Slice the bell pepper into thin strips.  Combine all veggies (potatoes, onion, fennel, carrots, bell pepper, mushrooms and tomatoes in a large roasting pan.  In a medium sized bowl, combine olive oil, garlic, herbs and chicken broth.  Wisk together and pour mix over veggies.  Add freshly cracked black pepper (to taste) and toss the veggies to coat with all the herby-oily goodness.  Cover pan tightly with foil and bake for 45 minutes.  Brown the sausages in a frying pan.  You don't need to cook the sausages through, just crisp up the casings.  When the veggies come out of the oven, remove the foil (veg will be fork tender).  Place the sausages on top of the veggies, and then pour the balsamic vinegar over the whole glorious mess.  Put back into the oven, uncovered.  After fifteen minutes, remove and baste everything with the juices from the bottom of the pan.  Continue to  bake for another 10-15 minutes.  Top with the reserved fennel fronds. 

That's it... beautiful tangy yumminess.  And, like many of my favourite recipes, it's easily adjustable.  If you don't have carrots, no sweat, just add more fennel or more taters.  Feeding an army?  You are only limited by the size of your roasting pan. 

Easy and yummy.  The best of both worlds.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

The Fun Never Stops

Hey Humble Readers...

I think I am destined to have complicated pregnancies, that's all there is to it. 

Progesterone deficiency resulting in recurrent pregnancy loss?  Check!

High blood pressure?  Check!

Insulin dependant gestational diabetes? Check!

And new as of last night...
Raging kidney infection and possible kidney stones?  Check!

It started with dark urine over the last couple of days, which I thought was just a result of not drinking enough water.  Then I started passing tiny little blood clots in my urine (anyone recall that "spotting" I had last week?  Likely tied to this and not vaginal bleeding at all). 

AND THEN... the pain... oh heavens!  The only way I can describe it... you know that stitch in your side you get when you run?  Well, imagine that only a hundred times worse.  Thankfully, each time it came on it only lasted about an hour.   Drinking water seemed to be the only thing that made it at all bearable.

So I was able to get in to see Dr. B today, and do you know what he said to me when he walked into the exam room?  "Oh, you're looking well today."  Grrrr....

Long story short, he wants to treat the kidney infection (massive antibiotics), and see what happens from that point on.  If I start vomitting (oh joy... m/s has finally just vanished, and this could bring on more vomitting??) or can't tolerate the pain I'm to go to the hospital and be put on an IV.  Greeeaaat...

Honestly, I'm thankful that this isn't something that could do harm to our little Halfling 2.0 and that I was able to get in to see my doctor as quick as I was.  I'm just tired of feeling like things might just be leveling out when something new comes along. 

I want to enjoy this pregnancy, not constantly be trying to balance meds(this one twice a day, that one 4 times a day on an empty stomach, the other three times a day evenly spaced, insulin injections, eat now and test glucose in two hours) and eating and water and sleep. 

I apologize for the whining.  I'm just not feeling well and that is reflected here. 

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Just For A Chuckle

Hey Humble Readers...

Something to make you all laugh, and probably shake your head...

Crazy, right?  Make sure to click on the pic to read all the insane details.  (ok, so it didn't come out that clear...)  This is what it says, "Not soon enough.  Labratory tests over the last few years have proven that babies who start drinking soda during that early formative period have a much higher chance of gaining acceptance and 'fitting in' during those awkward pre-teen and teen years.  So do yourself a favor.  Do your child a favor.  Start them on a strict regimen of soda and other sugary carbonated beverages right now, for a lifetime of guaranteed happiness."

And just for the record... I'm planning on Ginny not having soda until she's twelve.  (A mother can dream, right?)

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

11 Weeks: Slowly Waking Up... Maybe?

Hey Humble Readers...

I hope you're all doing well and that you had a fun Halloween weekend.  We had fun taking Ginny out for her first trick or treating adventure. 

On the pregnancy front I'm feeling more human every day now, which of course then brings angst of the "oh-my-gawd-do-I-still-feel-pregnant?" variety.

How far along? 11w0d

Maternity clothes? Not yet.  I am noticing a few changes in my body already tho. 

Body Oddities? M/s has eased off almost completely (only really hits if I get too hungry which can be hard to balance with the GD), dry skin, periods of extreme fatigue (altho it is getting a bit better), alternating constipation and IBS flares, constant hunger, acne, bruises from insulin injections, back ache

Sleep? Also improving, but still not perfect. I still have to nap at least once a day, and I'm usually fading by 8pm.  I have been able to sleep for longer stretches at night, altho the fact that I've been attempting to increase my water intake has had an impact on my sleep.  Also, I'm starting to find it difficult to get into a good position to sleep... I'm a tummy sleeper, and that's starting to become uncomfortable these days.

Best moment this week? Totally not pregnancy related... taking Ginny trick or treating last night.

Ginny the BumbleBee & My Beloved

Worst moment? Having my blood sugars tank while at a very stressful meeting at church on Sunday.  Not cool!

Movement? Not yet, but I'm so aware of every little twinge in that area that I'm constantly debating "movement or IBS?"

Food cravings/aversions? Still longing for spicy foods... we have buffalo chicken burgers once a week now.  I'm also obsessing about cookies, and I know it's entirely because I can't have them.  Cottage cheese is still on the no-fly list.  I'm also struggling with water... I am normally a water person, but I just don't want to drink it these days.

Rings? Still on, and still loose.

Gender? Not going to find out, but I'm leaning toward 'girl' this time around. (which, of course, means that it will be a boy)

Intense Dreams? Yes, mostly about things I'm worried about forgetting... like getting my bloodwork done on time for my NT scan, and booking the photographer for Ginny's first birthday pics.

Medical Concerns? On 200mg of prometrium 2x a day until 12wks (almost done... yay!), Gestational Diabetes (insulin 5 times a day... levels almost settled for now), High blood pressure (on 100mg of lobetalol 3x daily), continued heartburn (on 150mg of zan.tac 2x daily)

What I miss? Sweets (only because I can't have them), energy, being able to eat whatever whenever I want (not having to wait until my next blood sugar check)

What I look forward to? My NT scan in 13 days, finishing the prometrium, getting started on making my Christmas gifts

Emotional State? Pretty mellow, with occasional bouts of frustration at being tired out.  There are so many things I want to get done right now, but I'm lucky if I can get dinner on the table most days

Friday, October 28, 2011

Ginevra @ 11 Months

Hey Humble Readers,

Check me out!  Two posts in a week!  I'm exhausted but it's important for me to write this post.  I missed last month, and I'm totally kicking myself. 

I wanna learn to play the drums!
Ginny is such a big girl now.  Looking at pictures of her from when she was a newborn tears at my heart a little, because she's grown and changed so much.  Oh, and she loves looking at pics of herself... she's obsessed with the little photo albums we have filled with pics of her. 

She talks up a storm now.  She says baby and daddy really clearly, and mumumum (that's me) and pup-eeeee anytime she sees a dog.  She babbles to herself constantly, especially when I put her down in her crib for quiet/nap time. 

Mama and Ginny and whipped cream... bad Mama!
She has a huge appetite and eats like a horse.  She loves just about everything, except carrots.  We don't have to mash up her food too much any longer, and she adores her yogurt in the morning.  Other favourites include quinoa, chicken, cheese, grapes, tomatoes, roast beef, broccoli.  Oh, and don't get me started on cheerios!  I swear they put something addictive in them for wee ones.  She just tried mushrooms for the first time this week and was intrigued.  I've also started to transition her from formula to whole milk.  She prefers to drink from a straw or sippy cup now, rather than a bottle. 

Look at those eyes
She's a total ham in front of the camera.  As soon as she sees it in my hand she grins like a fool and shows off her 2 little teeth.  Still no sign of the others making an appearance, although she has been drooling again and has recently had a bout of diaper rash.

Good stuff!
She's 19 pounds, and tall.  Pants that fit the length of her legs fall off her waist.  I got her a bunch of overalls just so she can have some pants that stay up.  She sleeps from 8pm to sometime between 6-8am almost every night, although naps are shorter than they used to be and are less consistent.

Nap-time with Daddy
Ginny has two favourite tv shows (please don't lecture me about wee ones and tv.  I know, I know).  She loves the weather report on the news, particularly the satellite images.  And on Saturday mornings she loves watching "The Littlest Hobo", a really poorly done Canadian tv show from the '70s & '80s about a german shepherd dog that roams around saving people and solving mysteries.  She just loves that dog.  She gets so excited when it comes on that she practically hyperventilates. 

On the move
Ginny will walk a few steps at a time before falling to her knees or butt and then crawling at hyperspeed, usually toward something that she's not supposed to touch.  She's addicted to pulling books off the book shelves and pushing buttons on the tv, remote, phone, and dvd player. 

Mommy!  Turn off the light!  Too bright!
She has two comfort objects... the first is the green blanket that knitted for her while I was pregnant with her.  Sadly, she's pulled a couple of really big snags in it that I can't seem to fix, so I may have to spend some time knitting her a new blankie.  Ginny's other comfort object is a we.bk.inz dog (a little golden retriever) named Stanley.  He goes everywhere with her. 

Who me?  I'm not up to nuffin'...

Did I mention, she's a climber?
My honeybear can be a little monkey at times.  There's only one cupboard in the kitchen that doesn't have a lock on it, and it happens to be the cupboard where my Beloved keeps his breakfast cereal.  She's figured out how to open the door and can grab the cereal.  She also loves tearing apart the shoe rack by the front door and 'helping' when I'm folding laundry by taking the nicely folded clothes out of the basket and dumping them on the floor. 

Everything tastes better from Mommy's cup
Ginny hates socks... but she comes by that naturally.  I look at them as a necessary evil.  She's lost more socks in the last two months than I have in a lifetime. 

Flyin' with Daddy
She's happy and healthy, and very active.  Even though I'm struggling these days for energy to keep up with her, I wouldn't trade one tired moment of this life.