Greetings Humble Readers...
I'm sorry that I wasn't around over the weekend. It was a tad busy, even though I wasn't at work, and well, I think it's okay to take your birthday off from everything... just my humble opinion. :)
So, yeah, I missed a birthday post... again. And yeah, I missed my blogoversary post too. I can't believe I've been at this for two years now. Amazing. I spent some time re-reading some of my posts from the beginning and it's amazing how far we have come in the last two years.
We had a great weekend (farmer's market, dinner out, window shopping for baby stuff), with some not so great moments interspersed (doing battle with our cell phone service provider, realizing that our finances took an even bigger hit than we thought last month).
So, the point of this post? Here we go...
How far along? 29w0d
Maternity clothes? Of course, but only having 3 pairs of pants that are suitable for work is getting a little old.
Body Oddities? Where to begin? Ummm... let's see... there's the ridiculous amount of hair on my belly, the gassiness, constipation, dry itchy skin, Braxton Hicks contractions... oh, and the 'girls' have officially begun leaking (not much but enough to freak me out!). One thing I'm thankful for though, I realized last week that it's been months since I've had a real zit. My rosacea has gotten worse, but no zits! And I have discovered that baby brain has a directly affects my dyslexia... I've forgotten how to spell, and I get things backwards constantly, EVERYTHING, not just my usual suspects.
Sleep? Still hit and miss. I think the fatigue is just really starting to get to me.
Best moment this week? The dessert I had with my birthday dinner. I let myself be a very bad girl and had a slice of cookies and cream cake (chocolate brownie layers with oreo cream and chocolate mousse). It was to die for!
Worst moment? Working out just how broke we are going to be soon. First victim of the belt tightening? The groovy diaper bag. There are more important things we need. I'll find something cheaper that will work.
Movement? The Halfling is active at more random times of the day. He/She moves around when I wake up to go pee in the middle of the night, whenever I eat, whenever I take my insulin, when I'm just sitting around, when I'm walking... all. the. time!
Food cravings? What I wouldn't give for a tall glass of ice cold milk! I want it all the time. I've never been a milk drinker, but now that it messes with my blood sugar it's all I want.
Rings? I think they just might stay on for the duration.
Gender? Not going to find out, but I think it's a boy.
Intense Dreams? None that I remember this week. I know I've been dreaming a lot, because I wake up with that weird feeling that I have just been dreaming, but they disappear too quick to recall.
Medical Concerns? High blood pressure (on 50mg Trandate/Lobetalol, 3 times a day... bp was a little higher than normal this past week, but work has been super stressful), Gestational Diabetes (closer to getting it under control), on prescription Zan.tac for heartburn.
What I miss? This is going to sound weird, but I miss being able to weigh myself. I admit I am a scale junky, and weigh myself far more often than I should. But I can't now, because I can't see the numbers on the scale. It's so strange.
What I look forward to? Meeting this little person who's been kicking the tar out of my insides, MATERNITY LEAVE!
Emotional State? Better, I think. Don't get me wrong, I can still cry at the drop of a hat, but it's been less related to the numbers on my glucometer.
Ok, I really need to go get caught up with all of you...
Monday, September 20, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Oddities
Hey Humble Readers!
I should probably save this for my weekly update, but in the spirit of the up and down nature of my day I wanted to mention a couple of things.
First up, I think I have had my first Braxton Hicks contractions. It actually woke me up from a nap. My stomach went really rigid and then relaxed. It repeated a few times, and then afterward I had what felt like a stitch in my side for a couple of hours. The Halfling was really active through all of it. Totally crazy!
Second... it appears that my Beloved is dealing with some pregnancy sympathy pains. He's had a lot of charlie horse types of cramps in his legs. I know that some men get the nausea or the weight gain. But I have to admit this is kind of funny. Not that him being in pain is funny, but really, with everything that I've had to deal with in the last few months, it does make me smile just a little to know that I'm not in this alone.
I should probably save this for my weekly update, but in the spirit of the up and down nature of my day I wanted to mention a couple of things.
First up, I think I have had my first Braxton Hicks contractions. It actually woke me up from a nap. My stomach went really rigid and then relaxed. It repeated a few times, and then afterward I had what felt like a stitch in my side for a couple of hours. The Halfling was really active through all of it. Totally crazy!
Second... it appears that my Beloved is dealing with some pregnancy sympathy pains. He's had a lot of charlie horse types of cramps in his legs. I know that some men get the nausea or the weight gain. But I have to admit this is kind of funny. Not that him being in pain is funny, but really, with everything that I've had to deal with in the last few months, it does make me smile just a little to know that I'm not in this alone.
Tears & Laughter
Good Morning Humble Readers...
It's been an up and down kind of day already.
The Down:
My day started this morning earlier than I would have liked, but the pain in my hips is making it hard for me to stay asleep all night. So I was awake before 5am again this morning... ugh!! Then, when I tested my blood sugar, it was higher than it's been in a week. I ended up bawling in my kitchen (again!) because this whole thing is just so damned frustrating. And when I say bawling, I mean hiccup sobbing. I feel like an idiot now for letting the number on that stupid little screen dictate how I feel about myself... it's worse than a scale.
The Up:
It's Thursday, so that means it's a doctor day. My appointment with Dr. U was at 9. I got to see the Halfling again... he/she is now in a head down position, so we weren't able to see a whole lot, but the heart rate is good, and baby is growing. As of this week, my fundal height is measuring a bit ahead, and I really feel that my belly has popped out a lot more in the last few days. Dr. U was great about my blood sugars, and increased my insulin again a bit. I told him about my morning, and how I feel like all I'm doing is barely treading water, but not making any real progress. He told me that at this point in the pregnancy, I am at my most susceptible to even the smallest fluctuations in hormone levels (which will affect my blood sugar) and reminded me that we are going to be playing catch up for the rest of the pregnancy. When I expressed my concern at how much insulin I'm taking, he told me not to worry. He's had patients who were at double what I'm at now, at the same point in a pregnancy. He did warn me that my insulin will likely end up a lot higher by the end. He also told me that he's very happy with how serious I'm taking this, but that I need to ease up on myself. Have I mentioned how much I appreciate him?
So, my morning started with tears... and thankfully it was on it's way to getting better. I left Dr. U's office feeling better about things.
And that's when God decided I needed a little laugh.
As I was walking down the hallway and out of Dr. U's building, I felt my underwear starting to slide down my backside. My maternity jeans are still a little loose in the back end, so they weren't really helping to keep things in place. I got in the elevator by myself, so I took a moment to adjust... but I wasn't able to get things situated properly before the doors opened again. So, I was waiting outside the building for my cab, and I could feel them inching down my fanny again. By the time my cab arrived, they had completely slipped off my hips. Trying to walk to the cab, and then from the cab to my front door (including up a flight of stairs) was hilarious. I guess I should have invested in maternity undies after all.
It's been an up and down kind of day already.
The Down:
My day started this morning earlier than I would have liked, but the pain in my hips is making it hard for me to stay asleep all night. So I was awake before 5am again this morning... ugh!! Then, when I tested my blood sugar, it was higher than it's been in a week. I ended up bawling in my kitchen (again!) because this whole thing is just so damned frustrating. And when I say bawling, I mean hiccup sobbing. I feel like an idiot now for letting the number on that stupid little screen dictate how I feel about myself... it's worse than a scale.
The Up:
It's Thursday, so that means it's a doctor day. My appointment with Dr. U was at 9. I got to see the Halfling again... he/she is now in a head down position, so we weren't able to see a whole lot, but the heart rate is good, and baby is growing. As of this week, my fundal height is measuring a bit ahead, and I really feel that my belly has popped out a lot more in the last few days. Dr. U was great about my blood sugars, and increased my insulin again a bit. I told him about my morning, and how I feel like all I'm doing is barely treading water, but not making any real progress. He told me that at this point in the pregnancy, I am at my most susceptible to even the smallest fluctuations in hormone levels (which will affect my blood sugar) and reminded me that we are going to be playing catch up for the rest of the pregnancy. When I expressed my concern at how much insulin I'm taking, he told me not to worry. He's had patients who were at double what I'm at now, at the same point in a pregnancy. He did warn me that my insulin will likely end up a lot higher by the end. He also told me that he's very happy with how serious I'm taking this, but that I need to ease up on myself. Have I mentioned how much I appreciate him?
So, my morning started with tears... and thankfully it was on it's way to getting better. I left Dr. U's office feeling better about things.
And that's when God decided I needed a little laugh.
As I was walking down the hallway and out of Dr. U's building, I felt my underwear starting to slide down my backside. My maternity jeans are still a little loose in the back end, so they weren't really helping to keep things in place. I got in the elevator by myself, so I took a moment to adjust... but I wasn't able to get things situated properly before the doors opened again. So, I was waiting outside the building for my cab, and I could feel them inching down my fanny again. By the time my cab arrived, they had completely slipped off my hips. Trying to walk to the cab, and then from the cab to my front door (including up a flight of stairs) was hilarious. I guess I should have invested in maternity undies after all.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Hobbit-ish Potpurri: This and That
Good Morning Humble Readers...
I hope you're all doing well. I'm a bit dopey this morning as it appears that insomnia has made a come back. I just can't seem to stay asleep. One good thing about insomnia... It gives me a great time to catch up on my blog reading and commenting.
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A huge thank you to everyone who offered to help me out with my shipping dilemma. You are all superstars! Things are now in process, and I'm hoping to have my crib bedding in a couple of weeks.
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So, the diaper bag... this is the one I decided on.
It's not quite as cute as I was hoping, but it still looks more like a purse than a diaper bag. I also love that it comes with attachments so that it clips to the stroller handle. I'm justifying the price because this is going to end up being my purse for the next couple of years or so (at least!) so I was willing to spend what I would spend on a quality purse.
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Do any of you remember this little lady?
It's time for the smushed fertility goddess to be on her way. When Lindsay of "Destined To Be An Old Woman With No Regrets" sent her to me last year, it was under the proviso that I pass her along to one of my bloggy sisters when the time was right. Watch for her to be showing up on a blog near you! I will tell you that this little piece of clay is going to be going on a long journey. I just really hope she makes it in one piece.
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I have been doing more cooking... Yesterday, I made a shepherd's pie that is now residing happily in my freezer, along side a big container of beef stew and another big container of italian sausage and black bean soup. I feel like I'm making a bit of progress on my list! Yay!
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Just when I think my blood sugars are coming into line, I have a morning like today. I don't know if something happened with my insulin (when I took the needle out, it leaked a bit) or what, but yesterday was a great day and today my numbers and ketones are awful. I had the same thing for breakfast today as I did yesterday. Ugh! Maybe the insomnia is a part of this equation?
I hope you're all doing well. I'm a bit dopey this morning as it appears that insomnia has made a come back. I just can't seem to stay asleep. One good thing about insomnia... It gives me a great time to catch up on my blog reading and commenting.
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A huge thank you to everyone who offered to help me out with my shipping dilemma. You are all superstars! Things are now in process, and I'm hoping to have my crib bedding in a couple of weeks.
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So, the diaper bag... this is the one I decided on.
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| Skip*hop Studio Diaper Tote image courtesy of csnstores.com |
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Do any of you remember this little lady?
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I have been doing more cooking... Yesterday, I made a shepherd's pie that is now residing happily in my freezer, along side a big container of beef stew and another big container of italian sausage and black bean soup. I feel like I'm making a bit of progress on my list! Yay!
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Just when I think my blood sugars are coming into line, I have a morning like today. I don't know if something happened with my insulin (when I took the needle out, it leaked a bit) or what, but yesterday was a great day and today my numbers and ketones are awful. I had the same thing for breakfast today as I did yesterday. Ugh! Maybe the insomnia is a part of this equation?
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
I Found It...
... but there's a problem.
And I am hoping, Humble Readers, that one of you will be able to help me out.
After what has felt like weeks of searching for the crib bedding that I want (light green, in polka dots, stripes or solid), I have found a set that I really like. AND it's a reasonable price!
The problem is, I can't find a single company that will ship it to Canada. It's very aggravating.
So, I'm wondering... would any of my bloggy friends south of the 49th parallel be willing to let me use their address, and then ship it to me? Obviously, I will cover all costs for shipping. I just need someone to be my go-between.
Drop me an email or leave me comment with yours... and know that the Halfling & I will heart you forever and ever and ever!
And I am hoping, Humble Readers, that one of you will be able to help me out.
After what has felt like weeks of searching for the crib bedding that I want (light green, in polka dots, stripes or solid), I have found a set that I really like. AND it's a reasonable price!
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| image courtesy of diapers.com |
So, I'm wondering... would any of my bloggy friends south of the 49th parallel be willing to let me use their address, and then ship it to me? Obviously, I will cover all costs for shipping. I just need someone to be my go-between.
Drop me an email or leave me comment with yours... and know that the Halfling & I will heart you forever and ever and ever!
Monday, September 13, 2010
Week 29: Uninspired
Hey Humble Readers...
I'm running a bit behind these days. It's been a long week already (went back to work on Saturday) and I'm finding my energy is just tapped these days. I will get caught up with you all soon.
Thanks to everyone who commented on my last post... I think I have found the diaper bag I want. Now, can any of you help me find some basic green crib bedding? For under $300? That's your mission!
Here's the update...
How far along? 29w0d
Maternity clothes? Yup, no more bella bands for me.
Body Oddities? Oh so freakin' gassy! It's embarassing. Fatigue is overwhelming at times. I don't know how much of it is the pregnancy and how much of it is the GD.
Sleep? Not terrible, but I still tire easily. It feels like my sleep isn't as effective as it should be.
Best moment this week? Being on vacation for most of it. It was great to be able to take the time to do what I needed to around the house.
Worst moment? I've had some more incredible round ligament pain. There was one day that I almost fell over when I stood up because it was so bad.
Movement? I have a very busy little Halfling. With the exception of today, he/she has been all over the place. (I had to take some tylenol last night after work, and I think that made the Halfling a little sluggish this morning)
Food cravings? Not craving a whole lot these days. Just obsessing about the things I can't have. I've planned my first meal after coming home from the hospital after delivery. Sushi, a slice of chocolate cheesecake, a venti light ice non-fat chai latte, and maybe a glass of Siegerebe (my favourite wine).
Rings? I think they just might stay on for the duration.
Gender? Not going to find out, but I think it's a boy.
Intense Dreams? Not many this week, at least not many I remember. A couple of nights ago I dreamed about being in labour. Not the full on pushing, but sort of starting out.
Medical Concerns? High blood pressure (on 50mg Trandate/Lobetalol, 3 times a day... bp holding steady at 130-ish over 70-ish), Gestational Diabetes (closer to getting it under control), on prescription Zan.tac for heartburn.
What I miss? being able to bend over and pick something up off the floor without worrying about if I can get back up.
What I look forward to? MATERNITY LEAVE!
Emotional State? Generally, this past week has been a good one. But, today has been a rough one. I am really feeling uninspired at work, and I don't want to be the kind of person who checks out mentally before they are done physically. I'm tired, and I would much rather be doing things around the house to get ready for the baby.
I'm running a bit behind these days. It's been a long week already (went back to work on Saturday) and I'm finding my energy is just tapped these days. I will get caught up with you all soon.
Thanks to everyone who commented on my last post... I think I have found the diaper bag I want. Now, can any of you help me find some basic green crib bedding? For under $300? That's your mission!
Here's the update...
How far along? 29w0d
Maternity clothes? Yup, no more bella bands for me.
Body Oddities? Oh so freakin' gassy! It's embarassing. Fatigue is overwhelming at times. I don't know how much of it is the pregnancy and how much of it is the GD.
Sleep? Not terrible, but I still tire easily. It feels like my sleep isn't as effective as it should be.
Best moment this week? Being on vacation for most of it. It was great to be able to take the time to do what I needed to around the house.
Worst moment? I've had some more incredible round ligament pain. There was one day that I almost fell over when I stood up because it was so bad.
Movement? I have a very busy little Halfling. With the exception of today, he/she has been all over the place. (I had to take some tylenol last night after work, and I think that made the Halfling a little sluggish this morning)
Food cravings? Not craving a whole lot these days. Just obsessing about the things I can't have. I've planned my first meal after coming home from the hospital after delivery. Sushi, a slice of chocolate cheesecake, a venti light ice non-fat chai latte, and maybe a glass of Siegerebe (my favourite wine).
Rings? I think they just might stay on for the duration.
Gender? Not going to find out, but I think it's a boy.
Intense Dreams? Not many this week, at least not many I remember. A couple of nights ago I dreamed about being in labour. Not the full on pushing, but sort of starting out.
Medical Concerns? High blood pressure (on 50mg Trandate/Lobetalol, 3 times a day... bp holding steady at 130-ish over 70-ish), Gestational Diabetes (closer to getting it under control), on prescription Zan.tac for heartburn.
What I miss? being able to bend over and pick something up off the floor without worrying about if I can get back up.
What I look forward to? MATERNITY LEAVE!
Emotional State? Generally, this past week has been a good one. But, today has been a rough one. I am really feeling uninspired at work, and I don't want to be the kind of person who checks out mentally before they are done physically. I'm tired, and I would much rather be doing things around the house to get ready for the baby.
Friday, September 10, 2010
What Are They Smoking?
Good Evening Humble Readers...
Ok, so I'm starting to get pretty excited about baby gear. I've been holding back, out of a certain level of fear. But, I'm starting to get past that.
Tonight I started looking for a diaper bag. I know I don't want a generic Wa.lm.ar.t set up. I want something cute, maybe a bit trendy. Something practical and fun at the same time.
I did some online snooping, and I found this...
Ok, so cute right? Maybe even beautiful... but can you guess how much it costs?
Go ahead and try... and remember, it's primary purpose is to haul diapers, of both the clean and dirty variety.
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Got a number in your head?
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Yeah, so it's $400! (I'll wait for you to get back up on your chair)
Maybe I'm cheap. Maybe I'm not fashion-forward.. But I think a diaper bag that is almost twice what I paid for the crib... that's just a little exessive. Back to looking...
Ok, so I'm starting to get pretty excited about baby gear. I've been holding back, out of a certain level of fear. But, I'm starting to get past that.
Tonight I started looking for a diaper bag. I know I don't want a generic Wa.lm.ar.t set up. I want something cute, maybe a bit trendy. Something practical and fun at the same time.
I did some online snooping, and I found this...
Go ahead and try... and remember, it's primary purpose is to haul diapers, of both the clean and dirty variety.
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Got a number in your head?
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Yeah, so it's $400! (I'll wait for you to get back up on your chair)
Maybe I'm cheap. Maybe I'm not fashion-forward.. But I think a diaper bag that is almost twice what I paid for the crib... that's just a little exessive. Back to looking...
Kitchen Adventures: When Being Lazy Pays Off
Hey there Humble Readers...
This recipe makes a ton of food. I had one 9x13 casserole dish filled, and had enough left over to use a smaller, shallower oval casserole (was enough to feed us both last night, with leftovers). I'm planning on freezing the larger pan and saving it for a night when I don't feel inspired.
As always, the amounts in my recipes are never exact. Go with your gut and your personal taste.
Lazy Cabbage Roll Casserole
1 med cabbage, chopped or shredded
1 pound lean ground beef
1/2 pound lean ground pork (if you don't like or can't use pork, just add more beef)
3-4 cloves garlic, minced
2 med onions, diced
2 cups brown rice, cooked
1 lg can tomato sauce (about 3 cups, plain)
1 cup beef stock
a few dashes of worchestershire sauce
2 tsp seasoned salt
1 tbsp black pepper
2 tsp paprika
1 tbsp dried thyme
2 tbsp parsley or cilantro (I've been on a cilantro kick lately... love it!)
4 slices bacon, fried crisp and crumbled (optional... I don't think it needs it, but mom always puts bacon in her cabbage rolls)
In a large skillet, brown ground beef and ground pork together until no longer pink. Drain off excess fat. Add onions and garlic to meat and saute for a couple of minutes. Add in worchestershire sauce and all herbs, spices, and bacon (if using). Stir to combine, then add in cooked rice and mix well.
In a bowl, or large measuring cup, combine tomato sauce and beef stock. Pour half of it over the meat & rice mixture, and stir well. Now would be a good time to taste test the mix, just in case you need to adjust the seasonings.
In a greased casserole dish, spread a layer of cabbage, then a layer of the meat mixture. Spread another layer of cabbage, and another layer of meat. Top with a final layer of cabbage. Pour the remaining tomato sauce over the top of the casserole. Cover tightly with foil, and bake in a 375 degree oven for 45 minutes. I uncovered mine for the last 20 minutes. When it's done, allow it to stand for 5 minutes or so before digging in.
If you try it out, please let me know what you think.
(Hey! I just learned from Kristin over at Dragondreamer's Lair that Show & Tell is back. Suzy from Not A Fertile Myrtle is hosting it now, from Thursdays to Sundays. So, Humble Readers, click over there and join in the fun... after you read this post of course!)
While my grandmother would be appalled, I am very happy with how last night's dinner experiment turned out. It was easy and came out very yummy. I combined a couple of recipes (including my mom/grandmother's recipe for cabbage rolls) and then threw in my own twists.
While my grandmother would be appalled, I am very happy with how last night's dinner experiment turned out. It was easy and came out very yummy. I combined a couple of recipes (including my mom/grandmother's recipe for cabbage rolls) and then threw in my own twists.
One thing to keep in mind... you need to plan your time accordingly. The rice in the recipe needs to already be cooked, and you really shouldn't use instant rice in this. I started the rice cooking, and then started the chopping and other cooking.
This recipe makes a ton of food. I had one 9x13 casserole dish filled, and had enough left over to use a smaller, shallower oval casserole (was enough to feed us both last night, with leftovers). I'm planning on freezing the larger pan and saving it for a night when I don't feel inspired.
As always, the amounts in my recipes are never exact. Go with your gut and your personal taste.
Lazy Cabbage Roll Casserole
1 med cabbage, chopped or shredded
1 pound lean ground beef
1/2 pound lean ground pork (if you don't like or can't use pork, just add more beef)
3-4 cloves garlic, minced
2 med onions, diced
2 cups brown rice, cooked
1 lg can tomato sauce (about 3 cups, plain)
1 cup beef stock
a few dashes of worchestershire sauce
2 tsp seasoned salt
1 tbsp black pepper
2 tsp paprika
1 tbsp dried thyme
2 tbsp parsley or cilantro (I've been on a cilantro kick lately... love it!)
4 slices bacon, fried crisp and crumbled (optional... I don't think it needs it, but mom always puts bacon in her cabbage rolls)
In a large skillet, brown ground beef and ground pork together until no longer pink. Drain off excess fat. Add onions and garlic to meat and saute for a couple of minutes. Add in worchestershire sauce and all herbs, spices, and bacon (if using). Stir to combine, then add in cooked rice and mix well.
In a bowl, or large measuring cup, combine tomato sauce and beef stock. Pour half of it over the meat & rice mixture, and stir well. Now would be a good time to taste test the mix, just in case you need to adjust the seasonings.
In a greased casserole dish, spread a layer of cabbage, then a layer of the meat mixture. Spread another layer of cabbage, and another layer of meat. Top with a final layer of cabbage. Pour the remaining tomato sauce over the top of the casserole. Cover tightly with foil, and bake in a 375 degree oven for 45 minutes. I uncovered mine for the last 20 minutes. When it's done, allow it to stand for 5 minutes or so before digging in.
If you try it out, please let me know what you think.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Hobbit-ish Potpurri: Random Insanity
Good afternoon Humble Readers...
Thank you so much for you kind words on last night's post. I really appreciate all your support.
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So, here's the current scene in the hobbit hole.
That's my entryway and kitchen. (And, yes, that's the crib in its box in my living room.) Yikes! As it turns out, it's likely going to be a two day job. They had to chop our old furnace into pieces to get it out. Thankfully, I was at a doctor appointment while that was going on. Like everything in our condo, the furnace room is small, so it makes for cramped work spaces for the guys doing the work. It will be great once it's done, but this sort of thing just sets me on edge. The one installer is very talkative, so I've heard all about his BIL who lives with him and the drama that has taken over his house.
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As I mentioned, I had a doctor appointment today. It was with Dr. B, my regular family doctor. Dr. U is on vacation, but he didn't want me to go a week without a check in about my insulin and blood sugar numbers. My interaction today with Dr. B reminded me why I wish that Dr. U was a regular GP and not just an OB. Dr. B is not very supportive or encouraging about anything. He made the usual "we need to make sure you don't gain too much weight" comment, even tho I am still below my pre-pregnancy weight by a pound and a half. He took my blood pressure (130 over 70), and commented that "even though it appears normal" he's sure we'll have to increase the dosage on my meds sooner rather than later (he said that same thing when he first put me on the lobetalol, 10 weeks ago). He was also fairly condescending about my blood sugar numbers. He was "very concerned" that my fasting sugars are still so high (averaging 6.9-7-3 most days), and then clucked and hmmmm-ed over my food log. Yes, I have allowed myself a few treats here and there, but for 90% of the time, I have been very good. Anyway, the new plan is to add a morning shot of the long acting insulin to see if we can get my baseline blood sugars down, and then things should fall into place. Should...
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I came across this article today... I think it would freak the tar out of me if I saw one of these speed bumps ahead of me.
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On the menu tonight: Lazy cabbage roll casserole. We'll see how it goes. I've only ever made traditional cabbage rolls, so this seems a little odd. But if it works, then I won't have to spend a ton of time burning my fingers making 'real' ones.
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Autumn is definitely here. Trees are turning colour dramatically. It's been rainy and brisk all week. A year ago this time it was still hot and dry. So much for my hopes of a late winter. *sigh* Oh well... it's been making me think of turkey and pumpkins... Thanksgiving is a month away (for those of us north of the 49th parallel) and I'm looking forward to cooking a big meal.
Thank you so much for you kind words on last night's post. I really appreciate all your support.
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So, here's the current scene in the hobbit hole.
That's my entryway and kitchen. (And, yes, that's the crib in its box in my living room.) Yikes! As it turns out, it's likely going to be a two day job. They had to chop our old furnace into pieces to get it out. Thankfully, I was at a doctor appointment while that was going on. Like everything in our condo, the furnace room is small, so it makes for cramped work spaces for the guys doing the work. It will be great once it's done, but this sort of thing just sets me on edge. The one installer is very talkative, so I've heard all about his BIL who lives with him and the drama that has taken over his house.
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As I mentioned, I had a doctor appointment today. It was with Dr. B, my regular family doctor. Dr. U is on vacation, but he didn't want me to go a week without a check in about my insulin and blood sugar numbers. My interaction today with Dr. B reminded me why I wish that Dr. U was a regular GP and not just an OB. Dr. B is not very supportive or encouraging about anything. He made the usual "we need to make sure you don't gain too much weight" comment, even tho I am still below my pre-pregnancy weight by a pound and a half. He took my blood pressure (130 over 70), and commented that "even though it appears normal" he's sure we'll have to increase the dosage on my meds sooner rather than later (he said that same thing when he first put me on the lobetalol, 10 weeks ago). He was also fairly condescending about my blood sugar numbers. He was "very concerned" that my fasting sugars are still so high (averaging 6.9-7-3 most days), and then clucked and hmmmm-ed over my food log. Yes, I have allowed myself a few treats here and there, but for 90% of the time, I have been very good. Anyway, the new plan is to add a morning shot of the long acting insulin to see if we can get my baseline blood sugars down, and then things should fall into place. Should...
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I came across this article today... I think it would freak the tar out of me if I saw one of these speed bumps ahead of me.
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On the menu tonight: Lazy cabbage roll casserole. We'll see how it goes. I've only ever made traditional cabbage rolls, so this seems a little odd. But if it works, then I won't have to spend a ton of time burning my fingers making 'real' ones.
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Autumn is definitely here. Trees are turning colour dramatically. It's been rainy and brisk all week. A year ago this time it was still hot and dry. So much for my hopes of a late winter. *sigh* Oh well... it's been making me think of turkey and pumpkins... Thanksgiving is a month away (for those of us north of the 49th parallel) and I'm looking forward to cooking a big meal.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Remembering & Pondering
Greetings Humble Readers...
I'm in an odd place right now.
Emotionally, I'm feeling better about a lot of things... certainly more positive than I was a couple of weeks ago. Physically, my body is cooperating more, and other than being a bit stiff after painting the other day, I'm feeling good. While my blood sugar isn't great, it's certainly not swinging as much throughout the day. I'm feeling much more in control... as much as one can when their body has been taken over by a rambunctious Halfling.
And yet... all is still not right.
I know what it is. I know why I'm antsy.
It's September.
Last year, I had our impending NYC trip to distract me (which sort of worked), but this year is different. This year, I have been attempting to distract myself with all the 'nesting' stuff... the painting, the cooking, the busyness. But it's not working.
Two years ago today, my world began to crumble. My innocent belief that a positive pregnancy test would equal a baby in 9 (or so) months was shattered.
Emily Hope, our first angel baby, slipped away as quickly as she came into our lives. No, I never got to hold her, I never felt her move within me, and I don't really know for sure that she was in fact a she, but she was mine... ours. For eleven brief weeks I was the happiest I have ever been.
Saturday will officialy mark the two year anniversary of the end of my first pregnancy. And I will admit that I have been a bit stressed about facing this milestone in the midst of this happy time of expection.
What would she have looked like now? If she had been born on her EDD, right now she would be 17 months old. Hard to imagine.
I can't sit here and let the memory of the grief I felt then overtake me. Thoughts of her, and of Olivia Noelle our other lost one, are still sharp edged. I know they will dull over time, and not be so hard to handle. But do I want them to become dull? There is my quandary.
I don't want to be sad. But I would never want to forget either. I am thankful for Emily's brief presence in my life, because she brought me a different experience of love. And I don't want to forget that at all.
I'm in an odd place right now.
Emotionally, I'm feeling better about a lot of things... certainly more positive than I was a couple of weeks ago. Physically, my body is cooperating more, and other than being a bit stiff after painting the other day, I'm feeling good. While my blood sugar isn't great, it's certainly not swinging as much throughout the day. I'm feeling much more in control... as much as one can when their body has been taken over by a rambunctious Halfling.
And yet... all is still not right.
I know what it is. I know why I'm antsy.
It's September.
Last year, I had our impending NYC trip to distract me (which sort of worked), but this year is different. This year, I have been attempting to distract myself with all the 'nesting' stuff... the painting, the cooking, the busyness. But it's not working.
Two years ago today, my world began to crumble. My innocent belief that a positive pregnancy test would equal a baby in 9 (or so) months was shattered.
Emily Hope, our first angel baby, slipped away as quickly as she came into our lives. No, I never got to hold her, I never felt her move within me, and I don't really know for sure that she was in fact a she, but she was mine... ours. For eleven brief weeks I was the happiest I have ever been.
Saturday will officialy mark the two year anniversary of the end of my first pregnancy. And I will admit that I have been a bit stressed about facing this milestone in the midst of this happy time of expection.
What would she have looked like now? If she had been born on her EDD, right now she would be 17 months old. Hard to imagine.
I can't sit here and let the memory of the grief I felt then overtake me. Thoughts of her, and of Olivia Noelle our other lost one, are still sharp edged. I know they will dull over time, and not be so hard to handle. But do I want them to become dull? There is my quandary.
I don't want to be sad. But I would never want to forget either. I am thankful for Emily's brief presence in my life, because she brought me a different experience of love. And I don't want to forget that at all.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Experitment Results: Coffee Braised Roast Beef
Good Evening Humble Readers!
Well, the results are in, and all I can say is...
O... M... G...
This was an amazing find! I am so incredibly excited to share this with you, and so incredibly bummed that I forgot to take pictures of it... for that I apologize. The original of this recipe can be found here, and what follows is my adaptation. I think this recipe is easily adaptable to larger or smaller amounts... have fun with it! (Don't get freaked out by the long list of ingredients... it really is easy!)
Coffee Braised Roast Beef
Olive oil
1 - 3lb chuck roast
1 tbsp seasoned salt
1 tbsp black pepper
1/2 tbsp ground cinnamon (my ace in the hole for this recipe!)
4 cups very strong brewed coffee
2 yellow onions, coarsely chopped
3 cloves garlic, minced
2 cups quartered button mushrooms
1/4-1/2 cup worchestershire sauce
1 tsp dried thyme
2 tsp dried rosemary
3 tbsp cornstarch
1 cup beef stock
1/2 cup sour cream (I used non fat)
Mix seasoned salt, pepper, and cinnamon together, and season the roast on all sides. Heat olive oil in a heavy pot (like a dutch oven), and sear on all sides. Remove the roast from the pot, and toss in the onions and garlic. Saute for a couple of minutes, taking the time to loosen the browned bits from the bottom of the pan. Add the mushrooms in for a quick saute, and then add the roast back into the pot (and any accumulated juices). Pour the coffee over the roast, and add in the worchestershire sauce, rosemary and thyme. Give the coffee mixture a bit of a stir, and allow to come up to a boil. Reduce heat and allow to simmer slowly for an hour an a half to two hours (depending on how well done you like your roast beef). Turn the roast once, about halfway through.
When the roast is done, remove it from the pot and cover it with foil. In a small bowl, combine cornstarch and beef stock. Bring the braising liquid back up to a boil and whisk in the cornstarch-beef stock mixture, and allow to thicken. Combine sour cream and a couple ladle-fulls of the gravy in a small bowl to temper the sour cream (so it doesn't separate) and add to the gravy.
Slice roast and serve with the gravy.
I did mashed taters and a garden salad as sides. I will confess that when I first tasted the braising liquid, I thought it tasted a little bitter, and I wasn't sure how it would turn out. I am so pleased with the end result. Chuck roast certainly isn't the leanest or most tender cut of beef, but this recipe really did an amazing job on it! There was a ton of the gravy left over, and I think I'm going to use it in a Shepherd's Pie I'm going to make later in the week.
(And the cinnamon is absolutely that kick in the background that just makes it perfect!)
I really want one of you guys to make this and tell me what you think... My Beloved has asked that this be repeated often and soon.
** added in answer to Elana's question... I'm not 100% certain on kosher alternatives, but if non-dairy sour cream tastes similar to dairy sour cream, I think it would be ok. As for the worchestershire, perhaps some really strong beef stock (like if you reduced it), or maybe some balsamic vinegar (I was thinking I would add a splash next time). The worchestershire helps to cut the bitterness of the coffee, so anything that would add that tang would work, I think. If any of you out there have other suggestions, please speak up!
*** added to answer Good Timing's question... no, the coffee isn't overpowering. It's there, but it works in combination with everything else. I'm not a big coffee drinker either (I had to go out and buy coffee for this recipe), but I loved this!
Well, the results are in, and all I can say is...
O... M... G...
This was an amazing find! I am so incredibly excited to share this with you, and so incredibly bummed that I forgot to take pictures of it... for that I apologize. The original of this recipe can be found here, and what follows is my adaptation. I think this recipe is easily adaptable to larger or smaller amounts... have fun with it! (Don't get freaked out by the long list of ingredients... it really is easy!)
Coffee Braised Roast Beef
Olive oil
1 - 3lb chuck roast
1 tbsp seasoned salt
1 tbsp black pepper
1/2 tbsp ground cinnamon (my ace in the hole for this recipe!)
4 cups very strong brewed coffee
2 yellow onions, coarsely chopped
3 cloves garlic, minced
2 cups quartered button mushrooms
1/4-1/2 cup worchestershire sauce
1 tsp dried thyme
2 tsp dried rosemary
3 tbsp cornstarch
1 cup beef stock
1/2 cup sour cream (I used non fat)
Mix seasoned salt, pepper, and cinnamon together, and season the roast on all sides. Heat olive oil in a heavy pot (like a dutch oven), and sear on all sides. Remove the roast from the pot, and toss in the onions and garlic. Saute for a couple of minutes, taking the time to loosen the browned bits from the bottom of the pan. Add the mushrooms in for a quick saute, and then add the roast back into the pot (and any accumulated juices). Pour the coffee over the roast, and add in the worchestershire sauce, rosemary and thyme. Give the coffee mixture a bit of a stir, and allow to come up to a boil. Reduce heat and allow to simmer slowly for an hour an a half to two hours (depending on how well done you like your roast beef). Turn the roast once, about halfway through.
When the roast is done, remove it from the pot and cover it with foil. In a small bowl, combine cornstarch and beef stock. Bring the braising liquid back up to a boil and whisk in the cornstarch-beef stock mixture, and allow to thicken. Combine sour cream and a couple ladle-fulls of the gravy in a small bowl to temper the sour cream (so it doesn't separate) and add to the gravy.
Slice roast and serve with the gravy.
I did mashed taters and a garden salad as sides. I will confess that when I first tasted the braising liquid, I thought it tasted a little bitter, and I wasn't sure how it would turn out. I am so pleased with the end result. Chuck roast certainly isn't the leanest or most tender cut of beef, but this recipe really did an amazing job on it! There was a ton of the gravy left over, and I think I'm going to use it in a Shepherd's Pie I'm going to make later in the week.
(And the cinnamon is absolutely that kick in the background that just makes it perfect!)
I really want one of you guys to make this and tell me what you think... My Beloved has asked that this be repeated often and soon.
** added in answer to Elana's question... I'm not 100% certain on kosher alternatives, but if non-dairy sour cream tastes similar to dairy sour cream, I think it would be ok. As for the worchestershire, perhaps some really strong beef stock (like if you reduced it), or maybe some balsamic vinegar (I was thinking I would add a splash next time). The worchestershire helps to cut the bitterness of the coffee, so anything that would add that tang would work, I think. If any of you out there have other suggestions, please speak up!
*** added to answer Good Timing's question... no, the coffee isn't overpowering. It's there, but it works in combination with everything else. I'm not a big coffee drinker either (I had to go out and buy coffee for this recipe), but I loved this!
Experiment in Progress
Hey Humble Readers...
****Warning! Foodie Insanity Ahead****
I was feeling inspired today (for the first time in a while) and I'am trying something new for dinner tonight.
I came across a recipe online for a coffee braised pot roast, and I was intrigued. Earthy coffee, earthy beef... and the recipe calls for onions, garlic, and mushrooms. Most of the comments I read were either "I love it" or "I hate it". I'm taking a risk here, but chuck roast is cheap so I thought what the hell... worst case scenario, I use the leftovers for soup.
I tweaked the recipe a bit, adding some seasoning to the roast itself before I seared it off, and some worchestershire for extra beefiness.
We'll see how it turns out, but if it tastes half as good as it smells it will be a great dinner. If it works out well, I'll post my version here.
Cross your fingers for me!
****Warning! Foodie Insanity Ahead****
I was feeling inspired today (for the first time in a while) and I'am trying something new for dinner tonight.
I came across a recipe online for a coffee braised pot roast, and I was intrigued. Earthy coffee, earthy beef... and the recipe calls for onions, garlic, and mushrooms. Most of the comments I read were either "I love it" or "I hate it". I'm taking a risk here, but chuck roast is cheap so I thought what the hell... worst case scenario, I use the leftovers for soup.
I tweaked the recipe a bit, adding some seasoning to the roast itself before I seared it off, and some worchestershire for extra beefiness.
We'll see how it turns out, but if it tastes half as good as it smells it will be a great dinner. If it works out well, I'll post my version here.
Cross your fingers for me!
Monday, September 6, 2010
Week 28: In the Home Stretch
Greetings Humble Readers! Long time no talk!
I can't believe the third trimester is here! Wow!!
Sorry I haven't been around much. I've been taking advantage of my last week of vacation combined with the long weekend to get some much needed household chores done. The kitchen is now sparkly clean (walls included, thanks to the efforts of my Beloved), a few little fix-it things are fixed, and...
wait for it...
the nursery is cleaned out and painted! Woohoo! I think I might still have to do some touch-ups tomorrow, but it looks good. I was concerned as I was putting on the first coat that the grey looked a little too blue, but now that it's got two coats and almost dry, it looks how I wanted it to. Next on the nursery list is to paint the repurposed furniture we are going to be using. We're going to be stopping by Ho.me Dep.ot tonight after dinner (I'm soooo not cooking tonight... mexican here we come!).
Here's the update...
How far along? 28w0d
Maternity clothes? Of course! A couple of shirts are actually starting to show some wear... hmmm...
Body Oddities? I think I'm finally showing more. When I was painting today, I ended up getting more paint on my belly than any where else on my anatomy. My hips hurt and crack/pop all the time. Oh yeah, and apparently I have hit the wonderful flatulent part of this journey. So special...
Sleep? Still off and on... I was able to sleep in yesterday whicle is amazing.
Best moment this week? Ordering all the decor stuff we'll need for the nursery from Etsy. It was so much fun!
Worst moment? When I realized that after this week off, I only have another three weeks of work, and about a month and a half worth of to-dos. *Sigh*
Movement? All the time. I think he/she is turning a lot. The Halfing has been transverse at a lot of my OB appointments, but I'm feeling movement in other areas now... more vertical.
Food cravings? Seafood, sushi, dairy
Rings? Back on (and they look bee-yoo-tee-ful after getting prettified!)
Gender? Not going to find out, but I think it's a boy. Let me know what you think... there's a poll on the right.
Intense Dreams? What is it with travel dreams? Aside from the nightmares of death and loss, in all my dreams I'm travelling. The other night, I was on my way to China with one of my staff... odd!
Medical Concerns? High blood pressure (on 50mg Trandate/Lobetalol, 3 times a day... bp holding steady at 130-ish over 70-ish), Gestational Diabetes (closer to getting it under control), on prescription Zan.tac for heartburn.
What I miss? Being able to sleep on my stomach. I miss this so much!
What I look forward to? Being able to eat whatever I want, whenever I want it. Getting the furniture painted. Putting the crib together.
Emotional State? I'm feeling pretty good. More even keeled than I have been for the last few weeks. I can still snap at the drop of a hat, but I'm not feeling so anxious or frustrated.
I can't believe the third trimester is here! Wow!!
Sorry I haven't been around much. I've been taking advantage of my last week of vacation combined with the long weekend to get some much needed household chores done. The kitchen is now sparkly clean (walls included, thanks to the efforts of my Beloved), a few little fix-it things are fixed, and...
wait for it...
the nursery is cleaned out and painted! Woohoo! I think I might still have to do some touch-ups tomorrow, but it looks good. I was concerned as I was putting on the first coat that the grey looked a little too blue, but now that it's got two coats and almost dry, it looks how I wanted it to. Next on the nursery list is to paint the repurposed furniture we are going to be using. We're going to be stopping by Ho.me Dep.ot tonight after dinner (I'm soooo not cooking tonight... mexican here we come!).
Here's the update...
How far along? 28w0d
Maternity clothes? Of course! A couple of shirts are actually starting to show some wear... hmmm...
Body Oddities? I think I'm finally showing more. When I was painting today, I ended up getting more paint on my belly than any where else on my anatomy. My hips hurt and crack/pop all the time. Oh yeah, and apparently I have hit the wonderful flatulent part of this journey. So special...
Sleep? Still off and on... I was able to sleep in yesterday whicle is amazing.
Best moment this week? Ordering all the decor stuff we'll need for the nursery from Etsy. It was so much fun!
Worst moment? When I realized that after this week off, I only have another three weeks of work, and about a month and a half worth of to-dos. *Sigh*
Movement? All the time. I think he/she is turning a lot. The Halfing has been transverse at a lot of my OB appointments, but I'm feeling movement in other areas now... more vertical.
Food cravings? Seafood, sushi, dairy
Rings? Back on (and they look bee-yoo-tee-ful after getting prettified!)
Gender? Not going to find out, but I think it's a boy. Let me know what you think... there's a poll on the right.
Intense Dreams? What is it with travel dreams? Aside from the nightmares of death and loss, in all my dreams I'm travelling. The other night, I was on my way to China with one of my staff... odd!
Medical Concerns? High blood pressure (on 50mg Trandate/Lobetalol, 3 times a day... bp holding steady at 130-ish over 70-ish), Gestational Diabetes (closer to getting it under control), on prescription Zan.tac for heartburn.
What I miss? Being able to sleep on my stomach. I miss this so much!
What I look forward to? Being able to eat whatever I want, whenever I want it. Getting the furniture painted. Putting the crib together.
Emotional State? I'm feeling pretty good. More even keeled than I have been for the last few weeks. I can still snap at the drop of a hat, but I'm not feeling so anxious or frustrated.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Hobbit-ish Potpurri: The Saga Continues
Good Morning Humble Readers -
Well... my Beloved did his best, but in the end, the faucet defeated him. I am currently without water in my kitchen. Have been since last night. Plumber probably won't be here until tomorrow morning. Fun times!
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I went to see Dr. U today. Just a follow up on my GD, to see how things are going. He's still not totally happy with my numbers (the mornings especially are far from great), but he set my mind at ease by telling me that it takes time to get the right balance of insulin and my ever changing body chemistry. He said that we may be playing catch up for the rest of this pregnancy, because as the baby grows my need for insulin will continue to increase. I got a quick peak at the Halfling, and he/she seems to be turning a bit... no longer completely transverse. My weight is also down again... now officially lower than my pre-pregnancy weight for two visits to the doctor in a row.
*****
So, the stove... I am so happy with our new stove! It's awesome! Ceramic flat-top with a warming zone and one burner with turbo boil. Self-cleaning convection oven, that can convert a regular cooking setting to a convection setting at the push of a button. And the bake element is hidden. My only complaint is that the storage drawer underneath is smaller so I have had to find space in my cupboards for a few pans and things. But what I'm most proud of is my mad negotiating skills (ok, not really, but I can pretend). We shopped around, and the best deal was at Sears. Regular price on the stove was $1249, but because it was last year's model it was marked down to $799. We agreed to take the floor model (no dings or scratches or anything), so with a three year 'protection agreement' included (valued at $139, which we will get back in three years if we don't need to use it) we paid $769. Delivery and taking away our old stove was extra, but all in all, I'm happy.
*****
My next u/s has been booked for 32 weeks, so first week of October.
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In an ironic twist, I have to attend a meeting in Calgary in mid September, for work. The meeting is to help me be a better manager (coaching staff, directing how things go on the sales floor, driving sales, etc). The meeting takes place two weeks before I start my mat leave. Hilarious!
Well... my Beloved did his best, but in the end, the faucet defeated him. I am currently without water in my kitchen. Have been since last night. Plumber probably won't be here until tomorrow morning. Fun times!
*****
I went to see Dr. U today. Just a follow up on my GD, to see how things are going. He's still not totally happy with my numbers (the mornings especially are far from great), but he set my mind at ease by telling me that it takes time to get the right balance of insulin and my ever changing body chemistry. He said that we may be playing catch up for the rest of this pregnancy, because as the baby grows my need for insulin will continue to increase. I got a quick peak at the Halfling, and he/she seems to be turning a bit... no longer completely transverse. My weight is also down again... now officially lower than my pre-pregnancy weight for two visits to the doctor in a row.
*****
So, the stove... I am so happy with our new stove! It's awesome! Ceramic flat-top with a warming zone and one burner with turbo boil. Self-cleaning convection oven, that can convert a regular cooking setting to a convection setting at the push of a button. And the bake element is hidden. My only complaint is that the storage drawer underneath is smaller so I have had to find space in my cupboards for a few pans and things. But what I'm most proud of is my mad negotiating skills (ok, not really, but I can pretend). We shopped around, and the best deal was at Sears. Regular price on the stove was $1249, but because it was last year's model it was marked down to $799. We agreed to take the floor model (no dings or scratches or anything), so with a three year 'protection agreement' included (valued at $139, which we will get back in three years if we don't need to use it) we paid $769. Delivery and taking away our old stove was extra, but all in all, I'm happy.
*****
My next u/s has been booked for 32 weeks, so first week of October.
*****
In an ironic twist, I have to attend a meeting in Calgary in mid September, for work. The meeting is to help me be a better manager (coaching staff, directing how things go on the sales floor, driving sales, etc). The meeting takes place two weeks before I start my mat leave. Hilarious!
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Pray for my Kitchen!
Oh Humble Readers... I can't decide if I should be worried or proud.
Currently, my Beloved is in the kitchen.
He's attempting to change the kitchen faucet himself. He bought the new faucet this morning. I can't believe how expensive faucets are, and he got one at the bottom end ($150). Yikes!
He spent more than two hours trying to get the old faucet off. Apparently there were some seriously stripped screws. Now he's trying to put the new one on. I'm staying out of his way.
No matter what, I love him for trying!
Currently, my Beloved is in the kitchen.
He's attempting to change the kitchen faucet himself. He bought the new faucet this morning. I can't believe how expensive faucets are, and he got one at the bottom end ($150). Yikes!
He spent more than two hours trying to get the old faucet off. Apparently there were some seriously stripped screws. Now he's trying to put the new one on. I'm staying out of his way.
No matter what, I love him for trying!
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