Not Terrible, Not Great...

Hey Humble Readers...

I'm in need of some reassurance, so this is your invitation to blow smoke and just try to make me feel better, ok?

I got my beta numbers back this afternoon.  They aren't what I would like, and of course the ever sensitive Dr. B didn't really help matters with all his "well, they're pretty low" repeating like a broken record (he must have said it 5 times in my 10 minute appointment). 

HCG Beta @ 14 DPO: 34
HCG Beta @ 21 DPO: 442
Doubling every 45.5 hours

They aren't bad, but they aren't really strong either.  I'm above the 'minimum' line, but not at 'average'.  (I apologize, but I can't figure out how to get the graphic from http://www.babymed.com/).  I'm trying really hard not to stress about it.  I'm going back for more blood work next Tuesday, so we'll see what we will see I guess.  *sigh* 

Have I mentioned how much I hate all this worry?  Damned IF!

We also talked about my blood sugars, which are terrible!  I have an appointment at the diabetic clinic next week, and I'll likely be on insulin from then forward.  One thing I discovered recently is that prometrium, particularly at the dosage that I'm taking, can screw with blood sugars in a pretty significant way, so we'll see how they take that into account. 

My ultrasound is 13 days away.  Please God let there be a heartbeat!

I've Always Wanted To Be Normal :)

Good Morning Humble Readers...

A picture is worth a thousand words.

Beta #1 - 269 (18dpo)   Beta #2 - 1300 (22dpo)

I guess my emotional begging yesterday got through to DocB.  He called me himself just a few minutes ago with the results.

Breathing Easier ... But Frustrated

Good Afternoon Humble Readers...

Okay... everyone take a deep breath in.  Out. 

All is well, I just have a really dopey GP.  Apparently, he misread the information my OB sent over about the prometrium he prescribed.  DocB thought I didn't have the meds yet.  Oy! 

Then he started going on about how my beta numbers were 'rather low'.  I interupted him, and said that for 18dpo (thank you Elana for pointing out my miscalculation) 269 was right in the normal range, he clarified... low as in comparison to where they will be in two weeks.  Argh!  You don't tell a woman who has been at this as long as I have, and has been through two early miscarraiges that the numbers are low when they really aren't!  Double oy! 

The one good thing that came out of the appointment... I have paperwork for weekly bloodwork between now and my ultrasound (April 20).  I did have to get a little emotional, and practically beg for the bloodwork, but I got it, and went for another draw this afternoon.  I'll get the results on Thursday morning. 

I'm feeling much more relaxed, and I so greatly appreciate all your support.  You guys are such a huge help...

Mild Anxiety... Please Tell Me To Chill Out

Good morning Humble Readers...

So I'm on pins and needles a bit here.  Someone please slap me back to reality?!?

I was told to call my OB's office today to get the results of my beta on Friday.  I waited until 10:30, called, and his nurse told me that the results are in, but DocU hasn't had a chance to look at them yet.  She said she'd call as soon as he does. 

I know, even reading that back, it sounds innocuous.  But it was more the tone of her voice. 

Maybe it's just a hectic day at the office.  I hope that's all I heard.