Hey Humble Readers...
I hope that your week has been going well. Things here in K-town are going ok. The service was small, but nice. After the internment, many of the people who attended the funeral came back to my mom's house just to chat and hang out. Most of the out-of-town guests left over the course of the day yesterday, and now it's just me, my Beloved and the Wee-lings remaining. We'll be heading home to the Shire on Saturday... and praying that Ginny doesn't have a repeat of the car-sickness that she had on the way out here (thank you all for your input on that, btw).
So, now that's out of the way... Welcome visitors! I'm an IF/RPL survivor, a mom of two hard-won wee-lings (aged 9 months and 27 months) and the wife of an ent. We live in a small city (the Shire), on the Canadian prairies, just east of the Rocky Mountains. I'm a pinterest addict, wanna-be novelist, good cook, mediocre baker, deluded crafter, and tv junkie. I'm a stay at home mom, who loves watching her little ones learn and grow, and is very quickly getting sick of El.mo and singing the Itsy-bitsy Spider.
A few times in the past, I have done an ABCs of Me as my ICLW intro, and I think I'm going to do that again. But this time there's a theme. Things that bug me... (I'm generally a pretty happy person, just been a little on edge lately). Here are the ABCs of my pet peeves.
A - Asters. Flowers are supposed to be pretty. Asters just aren't.
B - Birds. They're creepy. They're dirty. They're icky.
C - Chapped Lips. I am a lip balm addict.
D - Downton Abbey. Not the entire show, just how they ended the third season. That REALLY REALLY REALLY PISSED ME OFF!
E - Edemame. I just don't get it.
F - Fat-phobics. Especially doctors who are fat-phobic. To paraphrase J.K. Rowling... 'There are so many worse things a person could be than fat.'
G - Grocery shopping. It gets me out of the house, but that's about the best I can say for it. It's expensive and time consuming. And really, for what groceries cost, there should be someone who comes home with you and puts them away for you.
H - Hate disguised as humour. Or disguised as patriotism. Or as faith.
I - Infertility. In all it's forms. The way it tears a person down, the toll it takes on a marriage, and the lasting scars that seem to be slow in fading into memory.
J - Judgemental people. Especially when I'm the one being judgemental. It makes me less of a person, and no fun to be around.
K - Ketchup. It's okay in recipes, but I can't stomach it on fries or eggs or kraft dinner (that would be mac & cheese for my American friends). I also can't stand Kraft dinner, but that's another story.
L- Laundry. It NEVER ends!
M - Misophonia. This is an actual disorder that is defined by the fact that sufferers have an extreme dislike to certain sounds, even to the point of extreme physical and emotional responses. For me, it's related to people's mouths (chewing, swallowing, lip smacking, etc) and repetative sounds (like the sound of someone typing). I wish I could tune the sounds out like normal people do.
N - Nylons. Tights and pantyhose also fall into this category. A man must have designed them.
O - Olives. Yuck.
P - Panties. Just the word, not the article of clothing. Please, for the love of pete, just call them underwear.
Q - Queues. (Yes, it's a stretch). I don't have a lot of patience for waiting in lines. And I always, inevitably choose the wrong line... you know, the one that moves at a snail's pace.
R - 'Reality' TV. Why exactly is Kim Kar.dash.ian a celebrity? What has she, and her ilk, done that I should spend my time following their every move?
S - Scary movies. I used to love them. Now I can't even watch the trailers for them.
T - Transportation as sport. Namely NASCAR. I don't understand how watching cars drive around a track is sporting or entertaining. But that's just me.
U - Underwear shopping. No matter how much I psych myself up for it, it's never enjoyable.
V - Varicose Veins. Just another sign I'm too fat and getting old.
W - Winter. We've had snow on the ground since Halloween. I'm done with this season.
X - Xcessively (another stretch) high gas prices. We are spoiled in the Shire because our prices are some of the lowest in the country, but they're still ridiculous. And now here in K-town, the prices are astronomical.
Y - Yapping dogs. My mom's little shi'tzus are driving me nuts!
Z - Canadians who pronounce this letter as "zee". It's "zed" dang it.
Let me know what some of your pet peeves are.
Showing posts with label GG. Show all posts
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Thursday, February 21, 2013
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Sunday Night Chit Chat
Hey Humble Readers...
Thank you all so much for your kind words on my last post. It still hasn't completely sunk in that GG is gone.
We are still in the Shire. GG's memorial service isn't until the 19th (my sister and I don't understand why it's so far off) so we won't be leaving until next Saturday morning. My aunt is in K-town with my Mom, and most of the arrangements have been made. Not that Auntie S is going to be a whole lot of help to mom, as she's a long-time alcoholic. It just feels so strange to not be on the way out there already, especially after sitting on pins and needles all week wondering and waiting.
Other than GG, I have been reminiscing a lot about our trip to NYC a few years ago. I love looking at the pictures of my Beloved and I in Central Park, and all the amazing things we got to do and see, and the great food we got to eat. I hope that someday we are able to take the wee-lings there.
Onto tonight's chit chat...
Reading - "A Light In The Window" by Jan Karon... the second in the Mitford series. I love this series, but I have to say that this book is my least favourite (kind of like Chamber of Secrets is my least favourite Harry Potter), but I will slog through it for the sake of the series. Next up is "The Book Thief". It's one I've wanted to read for ages but just never got around to picking up. I can really feel my reading mojo kicking back in. When I was at the grocery store, I spent a ridiculous amount of time looking at their book displays... and I found a ton of titles that I want to check out.
Watching - Downton, of course. I'm looking forward to the return of Mr. Bates. I confess that I will likely watch the remaining episodes in the next few days, as we will be in K-town next week when the season finale airs.
Listening to - Nothing at the moment. It is blissfully silent in the hobbit hole right now, as everyone else is napping. This never ever happens.
Baking/Cooking - Tonight's dinner menu is Dijon & Brown Sugar Pork Loin, and the usual Sunday dinner stuff... mashed taters, mixed vegetables, and yorkies. This is a fun cooking week for me... Jambalaya and a fun variation on King cake for Mardi Gras, Tortellini Marinara with Caesar Salad and Garlic bread for Ash Wednesday, and a quasi-romantic dinner for us on Valentine's Day (our match-iversary... the day we were matched on eHarmon.y seven years ago).
Happy you accomplished this week - Made another big batch of apple sauce for Pippin. We've got enough now to get us to the end of April I think.
Looking forward to next week - Ginny has her first ever playdate on Tuesday. She's played with other children before, but it's been at church or with her cousins. I'm excited for her to hang out with her little friend J, and for me to get to hang out with J's mom.
Thankful for today - That GG is at peace.
Bonus question: Are you musically gifted/talented? Do you play any instruments? Sing? - LOL! The only thing I can play is the radio and I couldn't carry a tune if it had two handles. I always wanted to learn to play the violin, so that I could actually hear my heirloom violin, but hopefully Ginny will be musically inclined as the violin will go to her next.
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This was posted as a part of Carla's Sunday Night Chit Chat. Click over and check out what others are chatting about tonight.
Thank you all so much for your kind words on my last post. It still hasn't completely sunk in that GG is gone.
We are still in the Shire. GG's memorial service isn't until the 19th (my sister and I don't understand why it's so far off) so we won't be leaving until next Saturday morning. My aunt is in K-town with my Mom, and most of the arrangements have been made. Not that Auntie S is going to be a whole lot of help to mom, as she's a long-time alcoholic. It just feels so strange to not be on the way out there already, especially after sitting on pins and needles all week wondering and waiting.
Other than GG, I have been reminiscing a lot about our trip to NYC a few years ago. I love looking at the pictures of my Beloved and I in Central Park, and all the amazing things we got to do and see, and the great food we got to eat. I hope that someday we are able to take the wee-lings there.
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| Pizza Vongole at Otto (one of Mario Batali's restaurants) I have been daydreaming about this pizza recently. I can't believe it's been more than 3 years since we were in NYC |
Reading - "A Light In The Window" by Jan Karon... the second in the Mitford series. I love this series, but I have to say that this book is my least favourite (kind of like Chamber of Secrets is my least favourite Harry Potter), but I will slog through it for the sake of the series. Next up is "The Book Thief". It's one I've wanted to read for ages but just never got around to picking up. I can really feel my reading mojo kicking back in. When I was at the grocery store, I spent a ridiculous amount of time looking at their book displays... and I found a ton of titles that I want to check out.
Watching - Downton, of course. I'm looking forward to the return of Mr. Bates. I confess that I will likely watch the remaining episodes in the next few days, as we will be in K-town next week when the season finale airs.
Listening to - Nothing at the moment. It is blissfully silent in the hobbit hole right now, as everyone else is napping. This never ever happens.
Baking/Cooking - Tonight's dinner menu is Dijon & Brown Sugar Pork Loin, and the usual Sunday dinner stuff... mashed taters, mixed vegetables, and yorkies. This is a fun cooking week for me... Jambalaya and a fun variation on King cake for Mardi Gras, Tortellini Marinara with Caesar Salad and Garlic bread for Ash Wednesday, and a quasi-romantic dinner for us on Valentine's Day (our match-iversary... the day we were matched on eHarmon.y seven years ago).
Happy you accomplished this week - Made another big batch of apple sauce for Pippin. We've got enough now to get us to the end of April I think.
Looking forward to next week - Ginny has her first ever playdate on Tuesday. She's played with other children before, but it's been at church or with her cousins. I'm excited for her to hang out with her little friend J, and for me to get to hang out with J's mom.
Thankful for today - That GG is at peace.
Bonus question: Are you musically gifted/talented? Do you play any instruments? Sing? - LOL! The only thing I can play is the radio and I couldn't carry a tune if it had two handles. I always wanted to learn to play the violin, so that I could actually hear my heirloom violin, but hopefully Ginny will be musically inclined as the violin will go to her next.
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This was posted as a part of Carla's Sunday Night Chit Chat. Click over and check out what others are chatting about tonight.
Saturday, February 9, 2013
GG
Good Morning Humble Readers...
GG passed away last night at 11:30pm.
Though she be little, she is fierce.
GG passed away last night at 11:30pm.
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| GG & Pippin last July November 24, 1925 - February 8, 2013 |
She is survived by her two daughters, six grandchildren, and ten great-grandchildren. The oldest of 21 siblings (yes, all from the same parents), Grandma grew up on a Manitoba farm during the Great Depression. She learned early to stick up for herself, and to speak her mind. She was certainly not shy about giving you her opinion. The stories she could tell about growing up in such a large family would make your hair curl and make you laugh until you cried. She was a teeny little woman, just barely reaching 5 feet tall, at her tallest. She was a klutz, always falling or tripping (usually because she couldn't see her feet past her b00bs) and inevitably injuring herself. She loved flowers, butterflies, and teddy bears. She loved to decorate her home for every holiday.
I'm so thankful that she got to meet both of my children, and that we have some pictures of her with them for the wee-lings to look at in the future.
I'm in an odd place with the whole grieving thing. I feel like the woman I knew as my Grandma has slowly faded away over the past four (almost five) years. I am happy that she's no longer suffering, and that she is now at peace. And I'm thankful that my Mom's time as a care-taker is now done... it will obviously be hard for her, but it will be one major stressor off her heart.
Right now, we don't know when we're heading out to K-town. Possibly early tomorrow morning. It depends on when the memorial service will be held. Mom is very overwhelmed right now, and all I want to do is be out there to help. I will try to post again when we know more.
Friday, February 8, 2013
Hobbit-ish Potpurri: The No-Good-Very-Bad Week
Hey Humble Readers...
I totally didn't intend to fall off the face of the earth this week. But circumstances alter cases, and here I am. About the only good thing about this week has been the weather... lots of sunshine and warmer temps. When I say warmer, I mean that we are actually hanging out around the freezing mark.
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Hard on the heels of the yeast beast (which was something I would be super thankful to NEVER EVER have to deal with again), AF showed up. She was a couple of days early. I'm wondering if the yeast infection or perhaps the meds contributed to her early arrival. And yes, she was her usual bitchy self.
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GG is going downhill very quickly. My aunt flew from Manitoba to K-town this morning. Mom has been basically living at the nursing home. We aren't anticipating that she will make it through another week. We have looked into the cost of flying, but given that we now have to pay for a full price ticket for Ginny, it would be about $1200 and then having to pay for a rental car while we're out there. It looks like when GG passes we'll be driving, which my Beloved isn't thrilled with the idea. 12 hours through the mountains in the winter. Not going to be a fun trip.
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Pippin has been teething hard this week. But at least we are seeing some results. He cut his fifth tooth last night.
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So, remember how we just got my lousy Dell computer back from the repair guys, just a couple of weeks ago? Well, I had just gotten all my programs reloaded, downloaded and organized all my photos from picasa, and reset all my bookmarks. Then yesterday happened...
Ginny spilled water on my laptop. Or rather, she caused me to spill water on my laptop. I had just sat down on the couch with a full glass of water, my laptop open beside me. I was looking at Pip and didn't see her dashing over to plow into me. The glass in my hand went sideways, and about a third of it landed on my laptop keyboard. I had to disentangle myself from Ginny before I could attempt to do damage control and I think that was my downfall. I managed to power the computer down, but the screen had already gone black and I heard some of those sickening crackling sounds. I left it to dry out overnight, and when I tried it this morning it worked for a minute or two before it crackled again and crashed. The question before us now is do we dump another bunch of money into having it repaired for a third time in the last 10 months, or do we write it off and try to figure out how to work a new one into our budget.
In the interim, I'm using my Beloved's new laptop when he's not home. It's a tad frustrating because it runs windows 8 (not bad, just different) and a differently laid out keyboard (the shift key is tiny!).
*****
I want to leave you with something to make you smile, seeing as all the rest of this has been pretty whiney.
I totally didn't intend to fall off the face of the earth this week. But circumstances alter cases, and here I am. About the only good thing about this week has been the weather... lots of sunshine and warmer temps. When I say warmer, I mean that we are actually hanging out around the freezing mark.
*****
Hard on the heels of the yeast beast (which was something I would be super thankful to NEVER EVER have to deal with again), AF showed up. She was a couple of days early. I'm wondering if the yeast infection or perhaps the meds contributed to her early arrival. And yes, she was her usual bitchy self.
*****
GG is going downhill very quickly. My aunt flew from Manitoba to K-town this morning. Mom has been basically living at the nursing home. We aren't anticipating that she will make it through another week. We have looked into the cost of flying, but given that we now have to pay for a full price ticket for Ginny, it would be about $1200 and then having to pay for a rental car while we're out there. It looks like when GG passes we'll be driving, which my Beloved isn't thrilled with the idea. 12 hours through the mountains in the winter. Not going to be a fun trip.
*****
Pippin has been teething hard this week. But at least we are seeing some results. He cut his fifth tooth last night.
*****
So, remember how we just got my lousy Dell computer back from the repair guys, just a couple of weeks ago? Well, I had just gotten all my programs reloaded, downloaded and organized all my photos from picasa, and reset all my bookmarks. Then yesterday happened...
Ginny spilled water on my laptop. Or rather, she caused me to spill water on my laptop. I had just sat down on the couch with a full glass of water, my laptop open beside me. I was looking at Pip and didn't see her dashing over to plow into me. The glass in my hand went sideways, and about a third of it landed on my laptop keyboard. I had to disentangle myself from Ginny before I could attempt to do damage control and I think that was my downfall. I managed to power the computer down, but the screen had already gone black and I heard some of those sickening crackling sounds. I left it to dry out overnight, and when I tried it this morning it worked for a minute or two before it crackled again and crashed. The question before us now is do we dump another bunch of money into having it repaired for a third time in the last 10 months, or do we write it off and try to figure out how to work a new one into our budget.
In the interim, I'm using my Beloved's new laptop when he's not home. It's a tad frustrating because it runs windows 8 (not bad, just different) and a differently laid out keyboard (the shift key is tiny!).
*****
I want to leave you with something to make you smile, seeing as all the rest of this has been pretty whiney.
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| Ginny & Shadow-Girl |
One thing I forgot to include in my January post about Ginny was her relationship with her "Shadow-girl". She first discovered her shadow last summer when the evening sun would shine through our kitchen, but as the summer faded, so did shadow-girl. Around Christmas time, Ginny found her shadow-girl again, this time on our dining room wall, and started talking to her. Usually just about her toys or dinner, but it became fairly common. Then she started giving her shadow-girl smooches and hugs. She's tried to show Pip his shadow-boy, but he's just not interested.
Monday, January 28, 2013
Good News, Bad News
Hey Humble Readers...
Wow, it's been a day.
Started off with Pip giving me an extra early wake-up call (5:30am), then we had a small disaster after breakfast when a framed picture on a shelf in the living room fell and took a glass vase full of sand with it. Both the frame and the vase shattered on the tv stand and sent glass everywhere. Miraculously, Pip, who was less than 3 feet away from the whole mess didn't get a scratch.
After I got that cleaned up, I settled Pip for his morning nap and gave Ginny a bath. We decided that today would be another go round of potty training, so I moved the potty to the kitchen and got the little miss into her training pants. Two and a half hours later all I had to show for it was a pile of laundry. We went through all six pairs of quilted training pants. **sigh** We'll give it another go tomorrow morning.
This afternoon was about keeping the wee little man happy, and trying to get some housework done. All I managed to accomplish was sweeping and mopping the kitchen floor. But, I did finally have someone respond to my kijiji ad for the bassinet who actually showed up (have had four or five people interested but they never came by to look at it) and paid full asking price.
And then I got the phone call...
You might remember that I was rather concerned on Friday that my Mom's primary care physician wanted to see her today. I was concerned that it was going to be be bad news about "the spot" that she had removed last week. Thankfully, the appointment wasn't about that, and the doc isn't concerned about the spot, as he's certain the oncologist removed all of it. Whew, good news.
My mom's main doc is also my grandmother's main doc. And it wasn't good news.
My grandma, who has been in a nursing home for the last four years, ever since she had a series of physically debilitating strokes, has just been diagnosed with lung cancer.
We have known for a couple of months that she hasn't been well, but she's been ill before and she always surprises us and bounced back. But this is different. She's been complaining of stomach pain and has been eating very little. Back before Christmas Dr. W ordered some tests. It was the MRI last week that finally revealed the big picture.
GG (what we all call Grandma... ever since the first great-grandchild was born) has had a very poor quality of life since her strokes. She was a very active, social person, so losing her ability to communicate clearly and only having use of her right arm have been taxing. Her mental accuity has also slipped quite a bit. She doesn't remember my wee-lings' names (calls them 'the babies') and she struggles to remember who my Beloved is.
Of course, when Dr. W asked, my mom reiterated GG's wishes. No interventions, other than what's needed to keep her comfortable. No surgery. No chemo or radiation. The prognosis is anywhere between one and nine months. Mom is not that optomistic.
My head knows that it will be a blessing when GG passes. She would never have wanted to live this way, confined to a bed or wheelchair, eating mush for every meal, and never knowing if it's 2013 or 1957. And she never wanted extraordinary measures, even when she had the strokes.
By my heart hurts at the knowledge that I will most likely not see her alive again. For the last few years, whenever we've gone out to K-town, I'd resigned myself to the fact that when we left it might have been the last time I would get to see her, but it doesn't make today any easier.
Wow, it's been a day.
Started off with Pip giving me an extra early wake-up call (5:30am), then we had a small disaster after breakfast when a framed picture on a shelf in the living room fell and took a glass vase full of sand with it. Both the frame and the vase shattered on the tv stand and sent glass everywhere. Miraculously, Pip, who was less than 3 feet away from the whole mess didn't get a scratch.
After I got that cleaned up, I settled Pip for his morning nap and gave Ginny a bath. We decided that today would be another go round of potty training, so I moved the potty to the kitchen and got the little miss into her training pants. Two and a half hours later all I had to show for it was a pile of laundry. We went through all six pairs of quilted training pants. **sigh** We'll give it another go tomorrow morning.
This afternoon was about keeping the wee little man happy, and trying to get some housework done. All I managed to accomplish was sweeping and mopping the kitchen floor. But, I did finally have someone respond to my kijiji ad for the bassinet who actually showed up (have had four or five people interested but they never came by to look at it) and paid full asking price.
And then I got the phone call...
You might remember that I was rather concerned on Friday that my Mom's primary care physician wanted to see her today. I was concerned that it was going to be be bad news about "the spot" that she had removed last week. Thankfully, the appointment wasn't about that, and the doc isn't concerned about the spot, as he's certain the oncologist removed all of it. Whew, good news.
My mom's main doc is also my grandmother's main doc. And it wasn't good news.
My grandma, who has been in a nursing home for the last four years, ever since she had a series of physically debilitating strokes, has just been diagnosed with lung cancer.
We have known for a couple of months that she hasn't been well, but she's been ill before and she always surprises us and bounced back. But this is different. She's been complaining of stomach pain and has been eating very little. Back before Christmas Dr. W ordered some tests. It was the MRI last week that finally revealed the big picture.
GG (what we all call Grandma... ever since the first great-grandchild was born) has had a very poor quality of life since her strokes. She was a very active, social person, so losing her ability to communicate clearly and only having use of her right arm have been taxing. Her mental accuity has also slipped quite a bit. She doesn't remember my wee-lings' names (calls them 'the babies') and she struggles to remember who my Beloved is.
Of course, when Dr. W asked, my mom reiterated GG's wishes. No interventions, other than what's needed to keep her comfortable. No surgery. No chemo or radiation. The prognosis is anywhere between one and nine months. Mom is not that optomistic.
My head knows that it will be a blessing when GG passes. She would never have wanted to live this way, confined to a bed or wheelchair, eating mush for every meal, and never knowing if it's 2013 or 1957. And she never wanted extraordinary measures, even when she had the strokes.
By my heart hurts at the knowledge that I will most likely not see her alive again. For the last few years, whenever we've gone out to K-town, I'd resigned myself to the fact that when we left it might have been the last time I would get to see her, but it doesn't make today any easier.
Monday, March 26, 2012
Introducing Beauregard
Hey Humble Readers!
I just wanted to say a quick thank you to everyone who commented on yesterday's post. I needed every word you guys said. GG is holding steady today and, while it could change in a heartbeat, it looks like she may pull through yet again.
In other news, Beauregard, my new laptop arrived today!!! Yippee!! (Yes, I'm one of those freaks who names inanimate objects.) I am adjusting to what feels like a huge screen and a full size keyboard. It's like having to learn to type all over again.
Now I need to spend some time trying to remember all my bookmarks and favourites, and upload my pics and software (which is going to be so much easier than on the netbook... this computer has a disk-drive!! Amazing, isn't it?)
Anyway, I hope you're all having a great Monday. What was the highlight of your day?
I just wanted to say a quick thank you to everyone who commented on yesterday's post. I needed every word you guys said. GG is holding steady today and, while it could change in a heartbeat, it looks like she may pull through yet again.
In other news, Beauregard, my new laptop arrived today!!! Yippee!! (Yes, I'm one of those freaks who names inanimate objects.) I am adjusting to what feels like a huge screen and a full size keyboard. It's like having to learn to type all over again.
Now I need to spend some time trying to remember all my bookmarks and favourites, and upload my pics and software (which is going to be so much easier than on the netbook... this computer has a disk-drive!! Amazing, isn't it?)
Anyway, I hope you're all having a great Monday. What was the highlight of your day?
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Astonished At My Own Selfishness
Hey Humble Readers...
Have you ever had an eye opening experience that reveals some part of you that you are ashamed of? I learned tonight that I am a very selfish hobbit.
I found out tonight that my grandmother (Ginny's GG) is not doing well. Some background... she's the grandmother who had a series of strokes three years ago. We thought we were going to lose her then. My Beloved and I flew home to K-town, anticipating a funeral.
But in true Grandma-stubbornness, she hung on. She improved. She would be in a nursing home, but she would survive.
The past few years have been a series of ups and downs, and GG has surprised us many times, bouncing back from the brink. The whole family acknowledges that it would be a blessing if she could just go... living partially paralyzed, in constant pain, and confused most days is no quality of life.
So, tonight when I found out that she's having problems breathing and that she may be having more serious heart problems, what was my first thought?
She can't die right now. I probably can't fly, and I don't want to be 32 weeks pregnant and doing a 12 hour road trip to go to a funeral.
How awful is that?
I don't want to lose my grandma, but I know that it might be for the best. I hope and pray that she holds on, honestly, because I want her to be able to meet this Halfling this summer. Again, selfish.
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Also, please pray/send good thoughts for a long time family friend, R, (he worked for my parents for many years). He recently lost his step-father (who also worked for my parents), and now he has just been hospitalized with liver failure. He is too young, around mid-50s like my mom, and his youngest daughter is getting married this summer.
Have you ever had an eye opening experience that reveals some part of you that you are ashamed of? I learned tonight that I am a very selfish hobbit.
I found out tonight that my grandmother (Ginny's GG) is not doing well. Some background... she's the grandmother who had a series of strokes three years ago. We thought we were going to lose her then. My Beloved and I flew home to K-town, anticipating a funeral.
But in true Grandma-stubbornness, she hung on. She improved. She would be in a nursing home, but she would survive.
The past few years have been a series of ups and downs, and GG has surprised us many times, bouncing back from the brink. The whole family acknowledges that it would be a blessing if she could just go... living partially paralyzed, in constant pain, and confused most days is no quality of life.
So, tonight when I found out that she's having problems breathing and that she may be having more serious heart problems, what was my first thought?
She can't die right now. I probably can't fly, and I don't want to be 32 weeks pregnant and doing a 12 hour road trip to go to a funeral.
How awful is that?
I don't want to lose my grandma, but I know that it might be for the best. I hope and pray that she holds on, honestly, because I want her to be able to meet this Halfling this summer. Again, selfish.
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Also, please pray/send good thoughts for a long time family friend, R, (he worked for my parents for many years). He recently lost his step-father (who also worked for my parents), and now he has just been hospitalized with liver failure. He is too young, around mid-50s like my mom, and his youngest daughter is getting married this summer.
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