Thursday, January 14, 2010

Definition of Frustration

Humble Readers, please bear with me...

(and if you are one of my non-IF readers, please feel free to skip this post... IF irrationality follows)

We have been ttc for 2 years...

I have tracked 21 cycles (halfway thru #22).

I have had 2 anovulatory cycles which were recovery cycles after losses.

So, 19 ovulatory cycles... 13 of which have had O on CD 14 or 15. (a couple CD13s and CD16s thrown in for aggravation's sake).

My last two cycles, as I have bemoaned to death, have had O on CD17.

Today is CD16.

I have had EWCM for a week! Not just a little, but a lot. My temps are still relatively low, and I'm going insane. I know that a 2-3 day difference in my O shouldn't be a big fat hairy deal, but it's driving me nuts.

If I don't O tomorrow, I think I might do something unthinkable to my thermometer.

(yes, the rational part of me knows that stressing about O can cause it to be delayed... but just because I know it doesn't mean I can make myself stop stressing)

Ok, rant over. We now return you to your regularly scheduled ramblings.

Response to questions: OPKs have never been that effective for me. The few times that I tried using them, I found myself even more stressed out about missing the surge. Thank you for the suggestion, tho.

8 comments :

  1. OK Mrs. Just a quick crazy question...do those OV predictor peesticks work for you? I liked to keep track of all, peestick, temps + CM. I just always wanted that mutli confirmation and I noticed that they didn't always line up the way I thought they would.

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  2. Awww sweetie! I know it's incredibly frustrating. Hang in there :) Sorry I haven't got any greater words of wisdom than that but I do care that you're hurting/p.o'd!

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  3. Do you use OPKs as well? Sometimes all the things that are meant to happen to our bodies when ovulation occurs don't happen all that right time, I find OPKs, just that more accurate than anything else. Hoping the big O happens soon!

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  4. Hang in there. It could just be a little later than usual this cycle for no reason. Could you pick up some OPKs also? It might make you feel a little better.

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  5. {{{Hugs}}} hon...waiting SUCKS no matter what you are waiting for.

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  6. Oi! How the suck! Sorry.

    Maybe go dancing to shake the buggar loose :-)

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  7. For what it's worth, I don't think stressing about O would be enough to delay it... I think it has to be a pretty high, all-consuming stress level to do that.

    But then again, what do I know, it's not like I can get pregnant on my own!

    And cycle #22 was lucky for me, hopefully it will be for you, too. :) Good luck catching that egg!

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  8. Aw hon, no advice, but a big hobbity (((((HUG))))) to my favorite hobbit! I know it's frustrating. Believe me, I know.

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