Good Morning Humble Readers...
It's still pretty early here, but it is a beautiful day. We had a kick ass thunderstorm last night just after I got home from work, with lots of thunder and lightning. While I enjoyed it, I know it wasn't a good thing for those living a few hours south of us. The south eastern corner of our province is under a state of emergency because of severe flooding. Praying that they get some relief soon.
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I can't believe that I have babbled on and on here enough to have 300 posts. It's been an interesting journey to get here. I started this blog long before I knew about the ALI community, when I innocently wanted to keep a journal of my first pregnancy. Through two losses, and the long road to get where we are now, this has been my safe place, and I appreciate all your support so much.
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I have a love hate relationship with televised sports. My Beloved is a true Canadian, being a hockey and Canadian football freak. I enjoy hockey (I prefer to watch live rather than on tv)... I really do, but does the season have to last all year? Really, the only month that doesn't have any hockey in it is August. I know that the Stanley Cup playoffs are over, but with the awards ceremonies and the draft... it just needs to end.
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Serious moment: While I'm getting more and more used to the idea that this pregnancy is the real deal and that in just a few months we could be bringing home a little one of our own, I still have lots of those moments where it just seems like it could all go to hell at any second. Specifically, every time I get to/have to share our news with someone, I wonder if they are going to be the last person I get to tell before it all goes wrong. With people who have known from the beginning, I can talk about the baby all I want and I can be happy and even a little giddy. But when I run into someone who hasn't heard, I get nervous. I never claimed to be rational.
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My Beloved got to pick up our new car yesterday. When he picked me up from work last night it was so odd. It's far too nice a car to be ours. The dealership had it detailed and it looks amazing. I almost felt bad when we had to park it in our dusty little gravel parking lot behind our building. I can almost imagine bringing our baby home in it. Almost.
WOOT WOOT FOR 300! and for a new car! As for still getting nervous.. it's natural, but in the moments that you're not, and you are truly taking it in, close your eyes, breathe it in, smile and know that your little halfling is there w/ you and feeling you. He/She wants to meet you too! xo
ReplyDeleteI totally know how you feel!
ReplyDeleteIt was so hard for me to grasp the reality of my pregnancy.
I am so glad things are going well.
Happy 300! Keep it up - I love to read you!
ReplyDelete300 is a great accomplishment. I can only imagine what it must be like to wonder if everything is going to remain alright with your pregnancy.I hope as things progress you find continued peace.
ReplyDeleteWow, I can't even imagine ever getting to 300 posts! I am not even sure I have that much to say! Congrats on your long awaited baby! It's so hard to relax in a pregnancy when you have been on a "journey" like yours, but each day try and remind your self that "worry doesn't add peace to tomorrow, but it does drain the strength from today" and that you should celebrate each moment that you are that babies Mommy! Happy ICLW!!! and again, Congrats!
ReplyDeleteHappy 300!! :) Glad everything is going so well!
ReplyDeleteHappy Happy 300!
ReplyDeleteThat paranoia is completely normal after all you've been through to get this far.
Congrats on the new car!