Hey Humble Readers...
So, yeah, I went to the doctor today. Got some not so great news.
I went in because the yeast beast that I had a couple of months ago has not gone away entirely. It has just kept on flaring up (and making me mega miserable in the process). I was hoping for a rx cream or something.
I wasn't able to see the Dr. B due the short notice, so I saw Dr. L (one of his associates). She was friendly enough, but as soon as she pulled up my file, her demeanour changed. To back up a bit, I had to go in for an rx refill for my blood pressure meds a few weeks ago. Dr. B gave me a req for some bloodwork. He wanted to follow up on my blood sugars since it's been almost a year since Pip was born and my cholesterol because of my weightloss (hoping it had gone down).
Let's just say that things are bad.
My blood sugars are through the roof. And my cholesterol is pretty awful too.
Needless to say what I was hoping was going to be a relatively quick, albeit uncomfortable (always awkward having a stranger look at your lady bits, especially when they aren't at their best) appointment that would result in a rx for cream to stop the itch.
Instead I walked out of there barely holding it together and feeling like a big old failure. I am officially diabetic. I'm a friggin' statistic. I'm one of those faceless bellies that they always show on the news when they talk about type 2 diabetes and the 'obesity epidemic'.
So, in addition to my blood pressure meds, I am now on metformin (and I'm going to be spending a lot of time in the bathroom now... lovely), oral meds and cream for the yeast beast (totally connected to the big D), and in a couple of weeks Dr. B and I will be discussing meds for my cholesterol.
I guess this explains my lethargy and exhaustion. I just feel like a big old idiot and failure.
I know that in a few days, I will be able to have my brain wrapped around all this. I need a game plan.
Right now I'm just wallowing.
That's a lot to be dealing with, and I am so sorry! You're not an idiot or a failure! A game plan is exactly what you need, and I am sure you'll come up with a good one!!
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I am so sorry. Please don't let this derail all the good work you've done. You are not a failure. You are not a statistic. You are so much more than your body. Big hugs!
ReplyDeleteOh dear. :( I'm so sorry to hear about all this. Probably not the appointment you were expecting. It must be overwhelming but I know you - you'll wrap your head around this and come up with a plan and you'll be off to the races. Sending hugs!!
ReplyDeleteMy blood sugars have always been good, but I have been struggling to keep my lipids under control for the past few years. I have terrible GERD, and I have become an apple shape since the babies were born. I was put on a statin, and could not understand why my husband has perfect cholesterol on what I feed him, but my lipids were all TERRIBLE. I started drastically changing my diet in the past 6 months. Weight watchers was a joke to me, I was on it for years, was faithful to it, and only lost 10 pounds. I changed all of our meats to grass-fed 6 months ago, and the eggs to local organic, where the hens still get to peck for insects and grasses instead of just eating feed. I cut out anything with fructose, and switched to stevia. I decreased the honey in my tea and switched it out to stevia once a day and honey once a day (I need my cuppa Earl Grey). We get a CSA share once a week and I have to be creative to get all those fruits and veggies in my family. It forces me to focus on those foods. I went off my statin in January because I want to be pregnant again, ate grass-fed 4 times a week and lacto-ovo vegetarian 3 times. My lipids this month were still OK, except for total cholesterol and LDL. My HDL was normal for the first time in 10 years, with the exception of the time I was on the statin. Most of us have an imbalance of Omega-3s and Omega-6 fatty acids, and our lipids get out of whack. Grass fed meats, green leafies, chia seeds, and flax seed oil all can help to improve that.
ReplyDeleteI activated the Fitbug (an interactive pedometer) that my work gave me and found I was barely taking 2000 steps per day instead of the 10000 I need. I started doing Kettlebells at home twice a week, and just trying to get 5000 steps in. Now I am up to 10000 steps daily as of this week. 3 weeks ago, I switched to eating vegan 95% of the time. I have lost an inch off my hips and 1/2 an inch off my waist in that time, as well as 4 pounds. Hubby and I watched the documentary Forks Over Knives before the change, and we both committed to doing it, even though he is healthy. I think my body is so screwed up, it needs more drastic measures. I have a huge Pinterest board with vegan recipes, and we are all satisfied, even the kids. It was rough the first week, but my cravings are diminishing.
*big hugs* You are not an idiot or a failure. Our society has changed so much, but our bodies have not been able to keep up with it. It is so, so hard. So hard *more hugs*
ReplyDeleteOh, honey, I'm sorry. YOU are not an idiot, nor are you a failure. You have been doing amazing work and it sometimes just takes time for our bodies to catch up. Don't lose hope!
ReplyDeleteI'm just now catching up on my reading. I'm so sorry to hear this, but you are not an idiot or a failure. Sometimes, life gets in the way and our bodies rebel against us. You will make the changes you need to and you will move forward. HUGS!
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